Wanted to update and would appreciate some input…..It seems to have healed 95%. I no longer have any throbbing pain when I get an erection or masturbate. Just some slight possible burning that may be psychosomatic. I can’t tell if I completely healed. I have had some issues with psychosomatic pain in my stomach for about a year that actually went away after injuring my penis. I masturbated three times over these past few weeks. I didn’t have any severe burning or tingling in the glans and no noticeable issues afterwords like I did before in the first month of the injury. Just some slight perceived burning and irritation. About a week ago I felt a strong urge to masturbate and it was making my penis feel uncomfortable….so I masturbated and felt some mild burning and irritation during and after. I can’t tell if this is real pain or if I’m imagining it….sort of like the issue I had with my stomach pain. A few days ago I did wake up and my glans felt slightly uncomfortable and I immediately became very upset and emotional which just made me feel more uncomfortable. I haven’t returned to PE yet and basically I am too afraid to at the moment. I haven’t found a urologist that will take my insurance yet, but I have been going to my PCP for help and have been trying to find a urologist through him.
Since stopping PE my erections have improved to former glories and I have lost no size and still have the newbie girth gains and my one inch length gain. I haven’t measured for a while. I have more spontaneous erections and normal night and morning woodies.
Where should I go from here? I haven’t masturbated in about four days because I feel some discomfort…so I still get occasional discomfort. It is like an occasional slight ache. It happens when I have to urinate. The pain is like a 1 out of 10 but gets amplified if I think about it. It feels like I store all my negative energy and emotions in my penis glans now. I can’t tell if these are normal penis feelings or if I am still injured. It should be known that I am a mentally unstable person, and have a drug problem and smoke shit loads of organic tobacco. I use tar blockers now, but I feel unhealthy in general. I have many phobias and am paranoid. I am trying to find a psychologist as well.
Starting stats: Feb 08: [7.3 BPEL * 4.9? EG]----Now: [8.00 BPEL * 5.1-5.2 EG]------GOAL: [8 NBPEL * 6 EG]
Perception is reality.