Possible long-term injury, scared to start again
So it’s been a while (over 2 months) since I stopped PE due to a nasty combination of overzealous newbie routines, erect jelqing, overstretching and just overworking in general.
The one incident that led me to stop was a jelq session in which I felt a popping pain on the underside of my shaft (I posted about this a while ago). I immediately lost my erection, and was scared out of my mind. My flaccid hang was definitely worse for about a week, but over time it gradually came back. I notice now that my penis is definitely different from the way it was post PE, in these ways.
Before PE, I would get hard TOO easily. Like just thinking about how my dick felt inside my pants could get it rock hard. Stripping and simply being naked would get me hard. In hindsight I can see how this was a problem because it led to me being too stimulated to do jelqs at a safe erection level.
I was definitely more sensitive pre PE as well. Though my time off has definitely returned sensation to my penis, I can’t really ‘feel’ my penis in my pants in the same way that I did before. Before it was like my penis was constantly in this semi-erect state - I could actively feel the bloodflow. Now my penis feels more like a deflated balloon when flaccid. It’s nowhere near as ‘dense’ bloodflow wise, if that makes sense.
I feel like some of my inner penis has been brought out through the stretching I did, but now my girth appears to be slightly smaller. My exit point is lower now as well.
I can get useable erections and orgasm just fine, but at times the EQ is not as high as it could be in certain positions, whereas it used to consistently be at a higher level before, regardless of body orientation. I don’t know if this is a sensitivity issue, physical, or both.
I’m concerned mainly about a recurring pain that I feel in the area the injury happened 2 months ago. Not often, but from time to time when flaccid I feel a pulsating pain there, and I have no idea what it is. The pain is by no means severe or debilitating, just noticeable.
Any idea what this could be? I think my penis works at an acceptable level, but it just doesn’t really feel like there’s much between my legs, especially when flaccid. I still masturbate fairly regularly and I’m wondering if this contributes to slow healing. The fact that it’s been 2 months just worries me. I want my penis to feel ‘alive’ again, and return to an overall higher EQ level.
Any help at all is great. Thanks.