I’m coming up on the last straw. I’m 31 and never had a girlfriend in my life. I haven’t had sex in at least two years (I’ve lost track). I’ve had a few sexual encounters since, but every single one ends up the same way.
I already know people are going to say my dick is totally normal, but experience tells me otherwise. I’ve had girls not respond to calls/texts after seeing it, I’ve danced with girls who hand-signal to their friends that I’m tiny (this happens almost every time, especially if it’s close dancing/grinding), I’ve had girls who were initially WAY into me suddenly lose their interest like a light switch when they find out. I could deal maybe if this happened every once in a while, but the never ending dehumanization that haunts me every single time has irreversibly damaged my spirits.
I should probably also mention that I’m black, because maybe other small guys have ultimately found their way. While the stereotype may be true (at least statistically SLIGHTLY larger), to be small and black feels like an immediate death sentence. As if this weren’t big enough of a joke, I also have to deal with the fact that my dad and my brother are clearly packing.
Civilization has stopped natural selection from running its course, so I’m thinking the best contribution I could make is to not pass my tainted genes on, and maybe make an early exit. I would not wish this on anyone.
Here I am browsing Thunders with the last ounce of hope I’ll stumble across a goldmine thread that will solve all my dick problems, but my brain is too numb to wade through it all. I’ve been here on and off for the past ten years, and while I’ve never been terribly consistent (especially since one particular injury), I’ve never made any significant progress. Should I do the newbie routine for the tenth time, or am I just going to have to accept that I’ll be alone forever?