CBT consisted of trying to change my negative thought patterns and slowly progressing exposure therapy. The exposure therapy consisted of completion of an intensive twice weekly evening group therapy program, that lasted for ~ 3 months. That group therapy allowed me to expose myself (not literally) to talking/performing in front of a small audience (10-25 people).
I also had/have a once/week therapy session with a psychiatrist who gave/gives me some anxiety reducing tips/exercises like progressive muscle relaxation (Jacobson) and meditation and talk therapy. I used to do these:
The problem is that I’m still scared shitless of going back to work without drugs and just thinking about going back to work fucks me up and makes me anxious. I wish I never had to go back to that shit hole job. It’s very difficult for me to do it unless I’m heavily medicated. And even then, I just get through. Unfortunately, I don’t have that luxury as I have no other skills.
Starting Size: April, 28, 2010: NBPEL-7" Girth-6" (base, MSG, glans)
Currently: BPEL-8" NBPEL-7.25" Girth-6.25" (base)/6.125" (MSG)/6.125" (glans)