Im Thinking About Letting Go Of PE
Lastnight I had one of the worse panic attacks of my life. I have just added another .5cm and I’m afraid the extra stretch might be enough to damage my unit. Like most here I’m not an actual doctor, I graduated with my degree in urology from thundersplace. To make sure I’m safe I have developed this routine where I check my erection quality every morning and night to make sure I haven’t damaged my penis. Last night it took me about 4hrs to get an erection. I’m sure to a great extent my being unable to get hard was caused by anxiety, but it still worries me. Once I enter panic mode it’s a wrap. I fear not being able to get an erection, my thoughts start racing, and after that it’s damn near impossible. I ended up having to walk to the nearest 7-eleven for some sleeping pills because I absolutely could not sleep. Once I took a walk and popped some Advil’s tho’ I felt much better and sorta back in my head. I watched some porn, got a super strong erection, and everything was well. I’m not too sure why I’m sharing this. I just feel like I need to vent after last nights nightmare. I have a family history of anxiety and obsessive thinking so I’m kinda feeling like it might be in my best interest to lay off this shit. But I haven’t cemented and I may lose my gains. I’m actually already very happy with my gains but they came so quick that I’ve become eager for more. Beyond that tho this morning I woke up perfectly fine and I was able to get super hard. Hopefully it’s all in my head, I’ve experienced temporary impotence due to panicking several times before. Most likely I’m just a fucking nut. I never have any residual pain once I take the device off, but at the end of the day I’m still not a fucking doctor and sometimes I just deeply obsess over the damage I may be doing to my unit. I hate myself for strapping back in after lastnight but I’m kind of addicted to this shit. But yea, just thought I’d share that.