Your life story is so similar to mine themighty5 that it’s scary.because I could not perform or even try ( after disasters) with some of the girls that hit on me my colleagues and friends would some times think that I was gay! Now I am more mature and don’t really care what they think but at college it was very stressful. ( I bet this is familiar to you too)
I too don’t get morning wood and when masturbating often only get semi hard. Often (95%) I have cum prematurely when having sex too, I believe this is caused by not having a 100% erection and stimulating alot to get hard when in reality you should have been hard long ago. I do look at porn now to help masturbation but I had this problem years before I had the Internet or even a porno mag.
As a very young man say 18 or 19 I had a very small penis too and really never felt that horny too so wasn’t chasing the girls like my friends were although the constant sex talk eventually influenced me.
I have done alot of research on the net and believe that only you can really understand what is going on, many many doctors will tell you it’s all in your head but this is simply rubbish! Sure some of it may be but the fact that it’s not working as it should be then added to the stress will cause this, but that’s not the underlying problem. Iv had testosterone supplements as I have lowish testosterone.( in the normal range but the bottom end. Some people function OK in this range but others do not.) Any way this didn’t improve my situation after several months.( I used androgel patches, starting on 2.5mg and moving to 5mg and even put 2 on at once after little to no effect) I had diabetes and thyroid tests too all of which came back normal..
A friend of mine ordered some Viagra off the Internet but it wasn’t official Viagra and was very cheap and although I think it had some effect it certainly didn’t have the effect I was looking for! I’m not sure if it was fake or not( or some cheap alternative ED medication made to look like Viagra) but it did little for me, id love to try some official/real Viagra just so that I can suss out whats what. I mean if that’s doesn’t work there must be some real underlying problems.
I believe my problem may be a leaking vein as the head of my penis never goes inflated it’s wrinkly. Only when I jelq or hand clamp the bottom of my penis does it stay inflated and this slowly goes down. If it’s isn’t this it must be a hormone imbalance of some kind (for what it’s worth when I had my testosterone results they said that my sodium level was a little high and so was the female hormone in my body but the doctor said that this was healthy for producing sperm..
Any info from any one would be great. I’m sorry to hear that others too suffer this depressing condition. The only positive thing it has done is made me a very well rounded individual and a very thoughtful understanding person to other peoples inabilities in life.