I've misplaced my PE Mojo
I started this pe thing almost a year ago and went from approx 7.1” bpel x 5.9” right up to 8.7” bpel x 6.12” meg in the space of about 4 months. Now that may sound miraculous but it’s not as incredible as it seems.
I remember in my teenager/young adult years being quite large in the trouser department, couple this with being very muscular from sports & weights and my penis looked fairly impressive to me and girlfriends at the time and at my biggest I would probably have been around the 8.5” bpel mark with very little fatpad. However, in my later years I gave up sport, very rarely did weights, got into very bad eating habits and lived an extremely sedentary lifestyle. Next thing I know..
Welcome to the fatty thirties :(
In a reasonably depressed state late last year, I accidentally came across pe gym and then subsequently this site and decided to embark on a new phase of my life. One where I restored my wilting, bloated and unattractive physique, along with my constantly shrinking penis size, to it’s former glories, or at least a more glorious state than I’ve endured in recent times.
So I started on my pe trail like an eager little school kid who has just discovered some dirty little secret and in next to no time was seeing results and feeling great about it. I was trying to jog 2 or 3 times a week and attempting to eat right. No caffeine, no alcohol, less junk food, more fruit, veg and good protein along with clean complex carbs, exercise and of course PE to top it all off.
As some of you may know I soon went from 7.1 to 7.8” and at the 4/5 month mark hit the mighty 8.7” bpel mark. All from the beginner routine!!
Felt great. Superhuman even. Now all I needed to do was to keep going and keep up the hard work but life doesn’t really work that way does it? My work situation changed and I got promoted which meant longer hours, more pay and much more responsibility. On top of that I started working out a bit more. Hitting the gym ate into my time at home, which is code word for PE time ;)
So at the 5 month mark when I thought I could maybe go on to hit the 9” bpel mark my pe efforts started to become sporadic and I’d return home knackered from work and the gym, still with extra work to finish before I went to the office in the morning and still having to spend some ‘quality’ time with the fiance’. Then around the 7 month mark my gym efforts were curtailed, pe almost came to a standstill (maybe once a week at best) and the old eating habits started creeping back in.forget creeping they bumrushed their way back into my psyche with the force of a runaway freight train
Now I’m at the 9 month mark and am slowly trying to get back on track, get back in the gym, get pe back on and get the diet on the healthy road again but it’s not easy. My penis is back down to the 7.8” bpel mark, with my girth around 6” meg.
You know, each time you fall off the wagon, the harder it becomes to jump back on.
I know what I need to do and how to do it but sometimes I lack the motivation and often ask myself ‘is it worth it?’ Even though I enjoy (enjoyed) having a muscular,strong,functioning physique with a large penis and the attraction/ attention you receive from the opposite sex because of it and the confidence that brings. I suppose my attitude to life is changing and ultimately my priorities but I do still want this and will obtain it one way or the other it’s just that life and inner demons tend to distract you or place large obstacles in the way which can be a bitch to get around.
Had a big family crisis happen 2 weeks ago, 5 days before my holidays from work were due to start. I’m now halfway through my holidays from work and have only just returned home after having to spend the past week and a bit with the parents due to said crisis. Yes I know you have to be there for the family but I wanted to fucking pull on my dick, lift some weights and make love to my woman, not sit around listen to people cry and whine over a situation that can and will be sorted by a good solicitor (lawyer for the US readers)
Am I being selfish? Probably, but I want my former glory back and to obtain the dream I might have to be a little mean.
So, that’s where I’m at right now. I’ve let myself slip backwards and lost my mojo as a result but still feel a faint glimmer of passion burning deep in my loins somewhere and want to be the very best I can be, or at least a modified version that is healthy, well hung, focused with a low bodyfat level :)
Who’s with me?
Starting stats:- Dec11th2008 7.2"bpelx6" meg.Mar23rd09 8.375"bpel x 6.125"meg. Mar10 8.4" bpelx6.125" meg.
Goal: 8"nbpel x 7" A one eyed monster by any standard :)