Update on Hard Flaccid

I have experienced none of the side affects associated with hard flaccid accept my penis feels a little rubier. I have a raging erection right now which is strange because hard flaccid usually has ed as an effect. I’ve been avoiding PE and masturbation, but right now the temptation to whack off is irresistible.

Whenever I meditate, I sometimes feel my crotch loosening but when I start worrying about my dick again it feels a little tighter. Overall the hard flaccid has improved.

Can someone tell me (who dosen’t have hard flaccid) what their flaccid cock feels like normally so I can compare and sort of try and diagnose myself? When I press on it with my fingers lightly it feels soft, which is probably just the skin. But then when I squeeze harder it feels very tight and firm.