Psychological gains
The reasons to be in this forum change from person to person, I have my own and they also keep me here, helping others and helping myself too.
What I’ve noticed through those 10 weeks of PE is that even with gains not reaching the goals I planned to it (I know it works from body to body, different responses and so on, but it’s quite frustrating when you expect something that doesn’t happen your way), I feel much more comfortable with my unit, I see it bigger even id the ruler doesn’t show measures I wanted, I feel it thicker as well.
PE will help me to get gains, but it’s already helping me to accept myself as I am. And then I feel much more comfortable to go on with the training, not putting myself under pressure to reach goals, but to improve myself, as body, and as mind too.
I always found troubles due to my unit, but it wasn’t among girls, but through mean jokes between men. Since I was a kid I suffered about it, stupid prejudices and silly comments and meaningless contests of ‘who’s the biggest’. Sometimes we the man kind, can be very disappointing. Just look around if you have passed through this once.
You all know that every millimiter you gain is already a miracle, specially if you are told your unit is like a stone, and stones doesn’t grow after reaching it’s limit. Once shaped, it’s your stone, and it will never change. I could never accepted that. Although, breaking this law, and seeing my unit change, I am also starting to accept it. Maybe my ‘goals’ will change, because I don’t want really a huge unit. I want to be comfortable (happy and glad) with myself. I want to be proud of me.
Thanks a lot for the support, comments and answers you are sharing, it is definitely helping me with issues that are not only body-related.
I hope I can do the same for you too.
Start: BPEL 5.3 4.2 EG [2010 Sep 11]
Now: (BPFSL 6.75) BPEL 6.5 x 5.0 EG (Newbie Routine) [2011 Jan 04]
Goal: NPEL 7.0 x 6.5 EG