Introducing ME

Hello gents!

I came across this interesting forum a few days ago, and have just joined up because I found the posts especially interesting for, ahem.. ‘Personal Reasons’.

Let me tell you a bit of a background about me, and why I want to ‘upgrade the equipment’ a bit:

As a young man, I did not fit in with the other kids at school.. In fact, I was an eternal outcast. Humiliation, degredation, and pain were daily occurances, and the school system was completely unconcerned about the Hell that I went through [and impotent on the few occasions where they did ‘something’, which generally made things worse.]

In middle school, I decided to take swim class for my required phys-ed course because I loved to be in the pool. The class was one of the few bright points in my day, because I could escape the insanity and cool off at the same time.. Until the day one of the biggest, cruelest bastards in school transferred out of his course and came to my locker room. I’m sure you can tell where this is going, but it’s important to go with the story anyways. Okay, what happened? One day my avoidance tactics did not work and this guy comes into the locker room and begins giving me crap. I told him to leave me alone, so in classic bully form he forcefully took my clothes and then he [and his laughing accomplaces] not only made horrendous, dehumanizing comments about ‘my business’ but they also hit me and forced me to walk naked into the pool area where the girl’s class [and coach, I might add] were still doing their exercises..

I tried to be modest and hide my shamefully small package, but the thugs restricted my attempts and every person in there got a nice laugh at my expense - Yes, even the coach! - And I died a bit inside that day. Continued taunts by the witnesses and by all the kids they told later on continued right up until the day I quit high school, and some people even now make snide comments when they spot me, but the inner demons are the worst.. I’m certain that a lot of you have known them all too well as well, and I feel for you. I can’t count how many times a girl has been interested in me and I’ve lost out because those horrid little imps inside tell me ‘Your penis is so small, she’s going to laugh at you and tell everyone!’ or ‘You aren’t a man, you’re a little boy! A little boy who doesn’t deserve to enjoy the love and companionship of a fine woman.’ and this life has been quite lonely, with the few relationships I have had being with dysfunctional women who would go for the throat and oh, how shall I say “Knocked me down from Porn Star to Pee Wee League” when they broke things off [yes, THEY broke things off! I would put up with all sorts of pains, but when I would make a small error I was gone. I also attributed that to my obvious inferiority]

Now that I am older and have conquered many of the demons inside, I want to take the next step and remedy this ‘slight oversight’ of my being.. Not for any woman, but for ME. I do not ever want to feel the way I did that day in swim class, and every time I see my small, flaccid penis when I go to shower or use the bathroom I feel cheated. I want to be able to increase my ability to please a GOOD woman, and honestly I don’t feel like I’m big enough to satisfy a good woman’s libido.. The inner loathing and self hatred seems minor now compared to back then but I feel that it taints every aspect of my life to this day and it still cripples the ‘real’ me. I’m tired of hiding behind a ‘happy mask’ when even my own body mocks me, everything is NOT all right despite years of trying to fool myself into believing that it is. I have a small, unsatisfactory penis and that horrid fact has affected my life and happiness in myriad ways to the point where sometimes it is nearly unbearable. I want to change that sad fact, and that is why I am here. I want to learn how to fix this issue, because so much seems to hinge on size in this culture and I’m tired of being a sub-human.

As you can see, it’s a touchy subject for me. I want to change that.

Well, this is the place to be. Good luck to you. I think you’ll find the support you’ve been looking for here!

Man that story pisses me off, thats bullshit. Yeah although its nothing like your story, in middle school I got a lot of shit from some bullies too. I ended up becomming this shy totally reserved kid until about half way through sophmore year, and that was just when I started talking to ugly girls. Thanks to Thunders I have been able to increase my confidence, but more importantly my flaccid dick by a lot and it was shown in a couple of key situations while I was doing pretty well, and now I have the monster big dick reputation at school, its the best. Hope the same for you J.A. Kielbasa, you deserve it man.

Welcome. Don’t worry. We are not here to put you down. We are here to give you confidence :) Good Luck. May you reach the size you are looking for :)

Welcome to Thunder’s! Enjoy your stay and read as much as possible. You will notice gains in no time. Good luck!

Welcome to TP. I know how you feel I was the school retard. This was many years ago though I’m 43 now and They are retarded not me,hehehe.

By all accounts you probably have a normal size penis. Even if you don’t you are accepted here.

Good luck Juan!!

You can do it!!

Well that fucking sucks :( Your story really pissed me off. I know how you must of felt. You are at the right place. Just do it for you!

Powerful stuff Juan.

I’ll be in Denver later today, do you need to borrow my ADS?:)

Maldo

Good luck, Juan. I don’t think you need a big dick to please a good woman. For example, I’m married to a good woman and she doesn’t need or prefer a big dick. Different women have different tastes and needs. The key is to find one who’s a good match for you and try not to take it personally when you come across women who aren’t right for you.

I think the bigger problem is, as you’ve said, you’ve always been a social outcast. While you’re working on building up your dick, try learning more about those issues. Really work on your social skills. Remember that your goal is to get healthy and to feel happy. It’s not to get even with those who have done you harm or to turn from an oppressed kid into a bully yourself.

Something about you made you vulnerable to attack from other kids. Maybe it’s sensitivity or timidness. It wasn’t simply your penis. Really. Learn how to deal with those issues and you’ll be a happier person.

Modestoman, But look at your size “7.625 5.900”. Easy for you to say. We wish we had what you have! That said, I agree 100% with what you said!

Welcome to Thunder’s Juan! Your story is a sour one, but from what I’ve read you are starting to conquer those inner demons, and that’s the way to go.

Keep improving yourself in all areas of your life, and never give up.

Start with the newbie routine and you will raise your confidence about your penis in no time. Keep a positive attitude, and don’t take shit from anyone!

Thank you all for the kind replies!

I don’t know if the girls I’ve dated realize just how devastating their comments are when they go full bore. Of course, if they *did* realize the anguish they were dealing then they are even worse people than I thought!

Honestly I have no idea if I am even anywhere near ‘normal’ size at this point, because there have been so many bland [nay, unenthusiastic even], yet conflicting opinions and after a while I just said to Hell with it. A couple of the girls even decided to ‘volunteer’ their jerk ex-boyfriend’s obscenely large measurements, how his felt, etc. When discussing the subject but then they tried to play it all off by saying I was a great guy “personality wise”, small relief when they call out his name when I’m with them! Subsequently, I gave up on a LOT of things in life that I absolutely loved because this most basic ‘thing’ was so wrong, in that way this issue has robbed me of so much more than mere human sexual functionality.

I’d love to believe that the size of an organ made of mere piece of skin, erectile tissue, nerves, and other tissues has no real relevance but it does. It’s tiring to always ‘fall short’ when compared to other people, it is humiliating to be in a shower room and see other men walking around letting it all hang out with pride while I cower in the corner covered with a towel from shame, and I also refuse to accept that the case is as hopeless as my doctor has told me! As of now my penis does not satisfactorily serve it’s natural functions, it serves instead as a ‘small reminder’ of all the shame, self-hatred, and humiliation that has cost so much over the decades.

Now I just need to figure out how to start on this path and change myself into who I want to be. Obviously, years of self-destructive behavior related to my small penis has lead to many other problems as well - moderate obesity, progressed male-pattern baldness [started out in full at 15 too! Meh, at least I look good bald.], *hopefully* not too many serious cardiovascular issues - in addition to this key defect, so I have a lot of hard work in front of me! However, this could work as an advantage since PE would therefore be an integral part of the overall ‘renovation’ and would not be another tacked-on, unrelated thing to be pushed to the wayside. At this point, it’s all or nothing on this remaking of myself, because I feel like my time is running out and frankly I’ve wasted enough time being undesirable to good women.

Is there any equipment that needs to be purchased in order to do the techniques described? Are there any lotions that can be used to deal with dry, sensitive skin? My skin is so thin in spots that sometimes it tears with very little exertion, so I worry about injuring myself to the point where I couldn’t perform the techniques required on a regular basis, and the last thing I want to do is lose my progress because I had to take a week off to heal [sometimes it takes even longer, depends on where the tear is, size, etc[.

Again I thank you all very much! Finally, I have found a forum where this touchy subject is treated with the seriousness and maturity that is needed! Here’s to the success of your endeavors!

I’m sorry to hear that it hurt you so much. Now, what I would do if I were you is I would first start to work out. Mens sana in corpore sana, as they say, or something like that:)

Find time everyday to workout at least 20 minutes. After 2 weeks you will already see results, and your mood will improve significantly.
Maybe take up some martial arts, and then go and kick the shit out of that motherfucker from middle school, man people like that should be fuckin’ castrated. I’m sorry, but I feel furious now. And if you think you can’t kick his ass, find a guy on the street and pay him to kick his ass.
I’m kind of half-joking here, but man this is an example how that sort of bullying can ruin a man’s life!

Yo, your life is not ruined. Just motivate, see my 3D Motto? It always works. I would suggest to start slowly with a Newbie Routine. Just go to Newbie forum and look for it on top. Also watch all the videos before you do anything. As for the equipment, don’t buy anything yet. Do newbie routine for 3 months at least to condition your penis, then we will talk. As for lubricants, I use baby oil, but different members prefer different products. One more time, good luck, and if you have any questions just post them, or pm knowledgeable members.