First of all I am thankful to thunders place like almost nothing else in my life. I have been doing PE for quite a while now. I started when I was about 18 but did not know what the hell I was doing. I am very tall 6,5 so having a 5 inch penis was always a problem. I have been ridiculed a lot of times, and have girls and other people say horrible things to me. So finally I find thunders where i learned a lot and find people that are going through similar things as I do. I have done newbie routines on and off for about 4 years now, and have always had to stop due to moving to another country or living with a bunch of roommates or stuff like that.
To make a long story short every time i was steady and seeing some gains boom something would happen, now I just got to America for I have been in south America most of my life, I started doing a routine by DLD and I guess I was jelqing at high erection levels because at the end of about the 400th jelq I felt a strong pull on what I assume is a lig on the right side of my shaft and pubic bone. I stopped immediately. It was labour day weekend so I went down to Maryland to see my friends and on the way down I wasn’t in horrible pain but I had this feeling That something wasn’t right. After five days my balls where in extreme pain so I went to the urologist and he found that I have varicocele on both my right and left testicle, I know that I already had this but most of the tugging and pulling is what caused it to get worse I’m sure because every time I would start a routine my balls would ache a bit, but I didn’t really know that I had varicocele and thought it was normal.
Any ways im looking at getting surgery for it, but last night the area that I had pulled while jelqing was hurting quite a bit, so I am wondering if I have damaged my ligs or nerves, even though I don’t know where the nerves are, but if they are in that area It would be bad. So im wondering if spending 3,000 dollars to get surgery will clear this problem up. As far as the varicoceles I’m sure it will but for the other stuff what do I do. what might it be? I don’t know what to do i live alone in new york and am really in a messed up place in my life. Does any one know what it may be, and I know i must be insane but what I want to also know is will I ever be able to PE again cause I cant live well with a 6.2 inch length by 5 inch girth. Will I never be able to PE again? or if I do will I cause more damage to my organ?
I know I jelqed at high levels of erection and that might be a problem, but will i be able to get back on track after this is over and keep doing a mild routine?
Sorry for the spelling and long thread, but you guys are all I have. literally, much love to you all