Severe penis injury I get no help
Hi I found this great site when I was posting on other forums and I really am in desperate need of help. I m 19 years old and about 15 months ago I injured my penis severely by masturbating too hard. Before the incident, my life was really good and until now I have been depressed because of that day. I went to a lot of doctors already and they tell the problem I m describing is nothing after examining me.
1. First off, my penis is not the same flaccid size it use to be. I am circumcised by the way. The head pushes backwards and from a distance it looks like I m uncircumcised or I look like I have an extremely small flaccid size. I masturbated this one day last year and my penis is never the same ever the flaccid size is super tiny now because the head backs up even though you can clearly see the head. I am 100 percent positive that this masturbating incident caused this because I did feel weird afterwards and when I showered, I noticed my penis just changed. I taken risperdal and klonopin to fix my sympathetic nervous system.. As the doctors say and to help the blood flow but that does not work. My penis’s flaccid size is just embarrassing now. I will try list to my other problems here and will be going to be as detailed as possible
2.. If I look at it from a mirror sideways, it does not point straight down. I look at it from my view standing up and it does not fully point down. It points like a 45 degree angle when flaccid. Assuming you look at it in the mirror sideways, it’s like a ladder on a building if you can say but it is tiny because I have retraction of the penis? I have no clue what condition this is called. Whether this is burying of the penis, contraction, retraction, or burying of the penis. I think the urologist called this retraction of the penis and said it is perfectly normal. Well.. My penis is almost always in it’s tiny flaccid retractive form now and that is not normal. Also, whenever I have to do number 2, it seems my penis retracts back to make it really small and in the process it hurts everytime. It hurts a lot when it retracts.
3. Also, when I urinate, I noticed that it comes from 2 holes in my penis Yes, it sort of makes an X if you look at it very closely and I think this is an infection. One urologist who stretched my retracting penis to it’s normal flaccid size (of course it retracts back after a minute or 2) saw a scratch or mark there. I tell him that it hurts when I touch it there but he says it’s nothing to worry about. It hurts and I have no clue why every doctor says theres nor problem. Hence, this goes back to what I said earlier about it retracting whenever I have to do number 2. He says I can take an anaesthetic and check to see if there is really something harmful which I have to say YES because the bottom part of my penis hurts.
4. During the first 3 months after the masturbation accident, I could not masturbate or ejaculate at all since it was too small and swollen. Now I can ejaculate but I cannot do it the old fashion way. I cannot just watch a movie and use my hands to get it hard and then ejaculate. I have to use my mind to get my penis erect and then use my hands to get it to ejaculate. I hope you understand what I m trying to say here. I also do not have the hot rod anymore when I wake up in the morning eventhough I have to go urinate. Whenever I have to go to the bathroom, my penis is still flaccid shrunk and NEVER hard at all. This is not normal and this was the result of the accident
5. Also, since my penis flaccid is shrunk.. When I lay down on my bed on my back nude, my flaccid penis either points to the ceiling or usually points at me and that is abnormal since it’s flaccid. It doesn’t make any sense. Normally it’s suppose to point towards my feet of course like normal ppl. My erect penis size however has not changed. My flaccid size has shrunk and I have went to so many doctors and they give me the same response that is normal. Anyone here can plz help? I had an advertisment to use PeniSaver but I think those do not work my problem. Has anyone here ever heard of a story when the penis flaccid size just shrunk because of a masturbation accident? Is there also any surgery that can repair my injured flaccid shrunken penis by the way because this just looks embarrasing to me and also the mark on the bottom of my penis because it STILL HURTS NOW. Been to like 3 urologists and they refuse to see me even though my penis has pain in it still. I never had sex so I cannot have an std. I just wished I never had masturbated too hard that day because my life the day after that till now has been just hell to me. Thank you for any responses to this.