Injury Update/ Present Disliking of Clinical Urology
I decided my condition needed another check up. Here’s an update. So strange, so disheartening. It’s hard to stay completely positive about it lately, as hard as I try.
Improvements on left side of shaft. Sensation seems to be slowly coming back, although it still seems to go way down for a time after sex/masterbation. I try to avoid masterbation as much as possible now just because of that.
Right side of shaft- Numb/Sensationless. I never realized until about two weeks ago that all slight improvements I felt ended about less than halfway across my shaft. The right responds as much to touch as the skin on the end of one’s elbow.
One can see the color difference between the two sides also. Maybe more pressure was applied to the right side that fateful night.
To keep a story short, I was concerned about this new development so made a second urologist appointment with someone my dad recommended. To get to know me better, I’m a nineteen year old skinny kid who kinda looks more like a seventeen year old. I’ve always looked younger than my age. So when I saw this urologist, it was in my tendency to be a bit intimidated. I told him this new development, I even gave him a history of the injury (left side, right side, ect)
I told him about the powerjelq and it seemed like the guy totally wrote me off. He started giving a grin of slight disgust/ great disapproval. He wrote off PE and curvature correction entirely even though I didnt even try to support it. The eyes he was giving me when I mentioned the idea of the powerjelq made me feel like an unsure kid giving a class presentation for the first time.
Basically, he said it’s in my head. He said there can’t be any damamge after the check up because there is no sign of scar tissue. I re-stated that the right side of shaft was still numb, and he re-stated that everything looked to be in shape. I asked him about tissue death/nerve death, and he just said that everything was in line once more and that it was all in my head.
Disgust. .Embarrassment. Deep Hurt. Anxiety. Waning Hope.
I haven’t cried in over a year and when I left that place i cried tears of anger and frustration.
I don’t know where to go next. I want to just forget about my guy down there entirely but I can’t help but think about it at least once in every while.
Three months and the right side of my shaft is numb. Does anyone have any thoughts about this, any recommendations? Should I see a nerve specialist? Is it possible/plausible that the right side of my shaft went through nerve death through a eight minute stretching on the sides debacle with the power jelqer? I keep reading about different types of nerve surgery/treatment, but can that apply to the penis?
I’m really lost. Clinical urology just let me down, my dad says I should just let it go and that there is no problem. But the truth is that I just need a little direction. I really am so grateful for you guys, even as I keep coming back and coming back. One day when everything turns out alright, and even if it doesn’t, I’ll be able to return the favor somehow.