i dunno if you guys will remember but i posted around the beginning of the year about having difficulty getting hard, lasting erections, it was entitled “serious problem”. well it’s a few months later and things really aren’t going that much better. i haven’t been able to stick to my routine very well either because it’s hard getting the erections and i usually just don’t bother with it. anyway, i need advice. i’ve made an appointment with a mens clinic in the city for this thursday, although now i am having second thoughts. the problem is that i am only 19 and 6 months ago i was the horniest thing alive. i would get rock hard erections in lectures just sitting there thinking about the polish girl in my chem lab, and not only that, but i had immense control over myself too. i was so confident because not only was i horny enough to rise to the occasion ANY time, but i also had the endurance to ejaculate a few times and get right back up again a few minutes later. somehow over the winter that all changed (check my post for the details) and now i don’t seem to have any control at all. i can’t get rock hard erections unless i really concentrate and when i finally get it hard enough, i’m ready to bust, and that’s not going to hold up well when i’m with the girlie. i basically have until end of june before i see her and nothing is more important to me than getting my old dick back as well as being able to make love to my girlfriend, because she is amazing, and if i can’t do that eventually, i will lose her. so my problem is, i thought health insurance covered this clinic, and last year when i saw the add (i remembered the #) that was the claim. but now after calling, there is a $285 fee that i must pay. now if this guarantees i can return to normal then fine no problem i’d pay a lot more. but the thing is i can’t really afford it right now, and the lady on the phone went over the procedures. she said it would only take 2 appointments and they are 90% effective in curing “impotence” which i’m not even sure i have. but she said something about the doctor taking a blood test but also giving me medication that will give me a 45 minute erection and i dunno for sure if the doctor will do this to study me or if this is the cure… cuz i do NOT want to be taking pills for this that is fucked i’m 19 that’s NOT normal especially since just 4 months ago i was perfectly normal and now i don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. i am thinking two situations could occur, he’ll find some chemical imbalance, maybe testosterone deficiency or maybe an infection that will go away eventually with antibiotics, or he’ll find nothing and end up chucking some viagara at me or something.
other points to consider 1. i will be desperate only at the end of june therefore i have time to try other things
2. i called for the appointment last week and the schedule seemed VERY open, i could have had an appt the next day, so maybe i can wait and book in june if i’m at the end of my ropes.
3. not only is something fucking me up but now every time i have a sexual thought or look at porn etc, i put myself under a LOT of pressure to become hard (most of the time) and it’s going to be even worse when i’m with my girlfriend because i will put myself under even more pressure.
4. talk to my regular doctor, a little tough cuz he already knows me, but it’s free to see him, and i don’t know if he will take me as seriously
i know i’ve said too much already and i apologize but this is dominating my life now and it’s so scary too. the last thing is that my gf is so understanding and honestly doesn’t care about any of this, she somehow still adores me through all of this which makes me love her even more, but i want the old me, the one that would have rocked her world :( so any advice whether or not to cancel the appt? bear in mind i really can’t shell out 300 bucks without being sure about this