Yes, a female flapping her gums about this sort of thing is immature and cruel but let’s not play the victim. It’s that mentality that causes you to feel hurt, downtrodden and depressed. But, why does someone else have a power to effect you in such a way? They don’t… you give them that power. It’s not that she said it that hurt you, but the person you built her up to be was a facade, an illusion. So, you’re actually disappointed that the illusion isn’t the reality… the truth has been revealed, the veil lifted and at first blush, you do not like it. Your ego wants and needs to hang on to something to validate itself, to validate the illusion and deny the truth. That is why you’re feeling down, your ego wants to feel down, it wants to live in a time that doesn’t exist and by bringing in attachments to form (her) it can do just that. This may seem like mumbo jumbo talk, but really focus on what is being said here. The reality is she isn’t the person you thought she was, you’re hanging on to a thought of suffering created by the illusory person (her) and by your perception of all of this as reality… when it’s not. She’s gone now, and yet you’re still hanging on to her by any means you can… in this case, by what she said about you. It’s time to let go of her, of the past and live in the only ‘time’ that exists, NOW! Learn to remove the need to become attached to form or even substance (certain ideas or thoughts) and you’ll have a much more peaceful experience with the world. This does not mean you cannot grow fond of someone, care or love but do any of those things sound chaotic in any way? Of course not, they’re peaceful, as they should be. Be at peace with your self and with life and you will find peace, love, harmony & joy with someone else - someone else who isn’t an illusion but is the person you see them as…
Oh and I am pretty much exactly the same size as you are and I’ve never heard a complaint. The opposite is actually true…
Stay Classy…
Starting - November 12, 2012 || BPEL: 6 7/8in || EG: 4 1/2in
Goal #1 - BPEL: 7 3/8 (+ 1/2 in.) || EG: 4.75 in. (+ 1/4 in.)