PE and Voluptuousness

I noticed that the classic PE referred to jelqs although on the one hand it is also fun it tires me psychologically, leaving out the time to do a session decently you have to undress and keep a remarkable concentration alive.
I think jelqing is the main exercise but it is also the one that requires constant sexual thinking.
Sexual thought is very distracting and lasts for a long time after the session, alive and continuous.

Basically I have a calm and jolt-free mental state of mind, putting such strong sexual thoughts inside is not fun and upsets my “mental balance”, breaks my calm and firmness by taking away my lucidity and putting on a sort of breathlessness that requires ejaculation to stop.
But having to ejaculate, especially after the session, absolutely does not allow me to train three times a week, in the sense that to train decently without tribulations I cannot ejaculate so much, I could do it, even a lot more, but without having to train.

So I avoid ejaculating to be able to train decently but this creates an annoying sense of excitability.
I would have no need to ejaculate if it weren’t for the jelqing session in which I have to stimulate my penis and sexual thinking.
This becomes much stronger if the duration of the session is longer, in which case something happens as if the cum is now ready to come out.
I don’t like it and if it wasn’t for the PE I would never do it, as I have so much else to think about at a working and social level.

To make jelqs without worries I can’t ejaculate like this or the erection would drop a lot, it already drops a lot, it would be complex and difficult.
On a humoral level I enter a state of relaxation without sexual worries/thoughts and seeking them is an excessive and unwanted form of excitability/relaxation.
I still think the developments of the PE are very interesting and therefore it is only a reflection concerning the comfort of training.