Lap dancer has given me some sort of awakening. Whats going on?

Happy that you’re doing better man

Second session. The Goddess teaches me how to massage her. I start with her back. It is sensual as I am running my hands across her bum. She teaches me some strokes between her legs. Then she turns over. He teaches me how to massage her breasts including along the sides which she said is good for women who wear bras. I then massage her stomach, legs etc.

We then move onto the Yoni, which is the tantric term for the vagina and genital area. She shows me how to massage each side and then asks me to insert my fingers inside. She takes my hand and said, let me guide you. She takes my two fingers and places them on her clitoris and starts moving my hand across it. She says this is where I likes to be touched and how I like it done and if all couples could do this simple act think about how much fucking time it would save. And she is totally right. I could walk in to see her tomorrow and I know where it is and how she likes it.

She then asks me about finding a G spot and had I done it. I tell her about the dancer and my come here fingers and she laughs. She then asks me to try and find hers. And I can’t. So she shows me and says can you feel the difference in texture, and yes I can. Apparently I was in the right area it was just that hers is more forward than most. We then do an exercise where I stimulate both areas with the idea being to associate the G spot with pleasure generated at the clitoris.

Then I am asked to lie of the bed and she gives me a tantric massage similar to the first time.

Extremely professional and educational.

SB

Third session. Receive a tantric massage.

I commit myself to the intention of letting go as much as I can and truly giving to the experience.

We start by talking about my relationship and she makes some good points and some suggested things to try. The main thing was that I deserve an intimate connected relationship. And I feel like I am going to cry. It was seriously powerful and we have been talking for less than 5 mins. She explains that this is a fairly intense session as it is a lot longer.

We start with eye gazing. After two mins I feel this wave of emotion hit me and I just want to embrace the Goddess. I don’t. The after the eye gazing she thanks me and does embrace me. I melt.

We then move into Yab Yum, where she places her legs over mine and we move into an embrace. We breath together as I breath in I contract my PC and visualise energy moving from Sex chakra to my heart chakra. breath out with an AHHhhh and relax the PC and feel the energy go back to the sex chakra. I’ll admit I’m not too good with this bit but I do feel a feeling move down my legs. Energy? Who knows, but I can feel something that I think is a result of the breathing.

I lie face down and the massage begins. It is good as she is using some of the techniques she taught me in the previous session which re enforces the teaching. I am then asked to roll onto my back. The massage is pretty much the same as the others however it is longer and as a result higher levels of pleasure. She peaks me many times but with the breathing and a stronger PC muscle I don’t come close to the PONR. But it is still bliss. (Later i realise that my sexual energy was low that day as I had to really force an ejaculation later in the day. Another learning.) Then she ran off to another part of the room and came back with a feather. Top Tip! Buy a feather! Oh my god. She runs it down my front and I am in heaven. As she is massages my front her breasts come over my face and I blow on them as I exhale. I remember that I am supposed to be the reciever and then she moves my head to one side and blows warm air down my neck. and then the other side. Pure bliss.

I then had a thought intrude that interrupted me being in the present moment. The thought was that I can make the relationship with the wife work.

She continues with a few more peaks and then finishes with an amazingly light touch that send goose bump electrical tingles throughout my body. I am blissed.

I nice kiss on my forehead and she tells me to take my time. And this time I do take my time and really feel what I am feeling and what just happened.

We chat and I tell her of the thought and she said that is good. I then tell her that I think this session was probably self indulgent as it was all about my pleasure, to which she responds, don’t you deserve pleasure too? She is right. I am naturally a giver and find it hard to receive with out giving something back. Another learning. And it shows in that I give intimacy to try and receive it.

I thank her for the profoundly powerful experience, we embrace and kiss and I leave.

SB

The next day I feel some how unlocked. It was then I realised that receive massage session was not at all self indulgent it was in fact therapeutic. Now I love science and if its not backed by double blind research I not interested. But at the same time I can’t help but wonder if the intruding thought was in fact something unlocking that I have read about. I text her to say that I had realised that it was not indulgent but therapeutic. And i get a short reply back, “You are blossoming”.

Sexual energy.

Now I realised that it was in fact low I can do a few things. Rest and wait for it to come up or build it. So this morning I brought my self to the PONR twice and using the breathing and PC muscle I was able to bring myself back and decided not to ejaculate. The beauty of this is that I can feel sexual and have another play during the day should I want to.

SB

For making her wet, strippers lie but you really were.

For the other thing. Your confidence improved your personal power and as you see the effect on you.

She ain’t no goddess bro. She has some skills in that area, and so can you.

Your supposed to take that awakening and use it in a sex life with a female highly attracted to you.

Tried that. She was abused by her mother, won’t admit it, won’t seek help and is socially programmed that sex is bad.

We get on well and I am seeking my needs elsewhere.

SB

Not with the stripper. With someone mentally healthy that is attracted to you. There’s billions of women.

It was with the wife I tried it.

You all are still attracted to each other?

Because if wife doesn’t have a great sexual desire for you eventually it will drain all of your sexual energy.

She has to be reasonably attractive enough to you to cause arousal. And you should be attractive, and sexually arousing to her to cause her to feed you the right energy.

Low desire to no desire wives or ones who are ultra controlling will drain a mans sexual energy. It shows up as low libido and ED in a male coupled with her in a relationship.

Alot of the issues start out by the woman getting control of the man. In general women don’t desire a man she controls. She views him as a subordinate. She will strangely desire other men. Even if they arent really attractive because she does not control them.

What you describe is polarity. The has to be a certain amount of it to cause attraction. Yes, I would like to do the tantric stuff with her but she isn’t interested. Has her head in the sand hoping it will all go away. And yes I was under her control until recently when I took back my power and did what I wanted. I did two work shops, one on the art of pleasing him and the other on the art of pleasing her. At the end of each workshop a model comes in and gets naked and the strokes are demonstrated on him or her by the instructor. I also volunteered to be a model for her up coming courses. If F$%ing Covid didn’t hit I would be a qualified tantric love coach. I told my wife I was thinking of buying a car and got shot down in flames so I bought it anyway. Even little things like I throw the coffee grounds onto the garden and she told me not to do it. So I kept doing it and I get, I told you not to do that, to which I replied, yes you did but I don’t agree with you.

Next step is to enrol in the International School of Temple Arts training which is pretty full on with a few Orgies thrown in for good measure.

I’m also stripping back my social conditioning about what is right and wrong. To this end the wife now knows I see The Tantric Goddess, however I call her an Instructor. And I continue to see her on a monthly basis.

Power to me!

SB

Awesome, you learn those arts for yourself. What’s funny about wives, is they will respond and strangely desire you if you get a misstress or outside lover. An alternative was to fully throw yourself into your life outside of her and love the fvck out of what you do. Physical training 2 hrs many days and being involved in the culture, is enough selfishness to pull away free attention from a wife, and to start adding value back to yourself. You’ll get to a point where you care about yourself so much, that you won’t even want her scraps. She will start to wonder, and you will start looking more attractive. In the end they really have to WANT us badly, or were fucked… ( or not fucked in the bedroom ). Man up all the way bro!

Not necessarily.

A woman will become frustrated with a man that she sees as controlled by both her and the outside world.

She will also ultimately become just as frustrated with a man that both she and the outside world cannot control.

Ultimately she wants a man that is confident yet there for her while standing up confidently to the world around him.

It’s less about her being disenfranchised because she has control over you, than her feeling concern because she feels the rest of the world also has control over you.

A woman will love a man that gives himself to her, because she is worth it, while he at the same time stands strong to the world’s challenges as they come.

Don’t worry about giving yourself to the woman you love, be strong and let her know how you feel. If one is worried about looking controlled, then know, the woman is watching how you deal with the world around you. She wants your love, you can bend to her, your giving to her becomes diminished when you also bend to everything else around you.

Always be true to yourself. If you love someone, then be there for them, have no fear. This is strength.

If being you turns her off, no worries, the ocean is vast.

Be you, no fear.