7 month injury.

Martin

I think everybody having read this thread has understood that your condition is a serious case.

On the medical side, it seems to be too complex to be easily diagnosed over the web, even with some people here who had similar (but not exactly) the same difficulties. I hope too it’s not Peyronies, but only a ultrasound image is able to confirm this. As I said, do everything possible to get that appointment.

The other side is your psychological state. You are not only terrified, you are going through the worst time a man as a man can have. I say this just to make sure that you know I try to understand your situation as far as I am able to. I don’t say I feel with you, because this would be wrong. Only you know how terrible your own state is. So I don’t want to fake empathy where empathy is not possible because I have not gone through what you are going through.

But, and thus is quite a big but, I am son of two MD’s. I have made during more than 15 years a lot of patient visits with them, I have experienced three times war situations, have lived 4 years in a hospital compound in Africa and I have seen cases and situations just as any doctor sees in his career and sometimes even a bit more, mostly in war or in Africa. I think I am able to help people when they are in need. And since 23 years, I live with a women having a severe chronic disease. I’m not medically trained, I’m just experienced in lending my ears to those in need and give advice. Just as human being, nothing more.

And out of this experiences, I may have a no-nonsense view on what you wrote. Your entire life is in turmoil. Your being as man is in danger. So I tell you: start doing something! Sort this mess out. Set priorities. Do what YOU can do and get help where you can’t do it. Fight to get a meaning back for your life. And don’t let a sickness dictate you how you should feel.

YOU are in command of your life. Get back a job whatever you do, even if it’s beyond payline or education, just work something. Because sitting at home gives you too much time to make dark thoughts. And get psychological help, admit that you are in a crisis which is above what you can carry as burden. That is as important as your medical status. You are desperately crying for help - panicked and clutching at every straw you see. The obvious is: get psychological help. What you get here is a band-aid, but what you need is a solid cast for your soul.

One last thing: when you have appointments at the urology AND at psychological counseling, please talk about PE. Describe exactly what you have done. Please, please be one if the patients that do NOT hold back information! Out of shame, out of guilt, out of whatever. The MD’s and counselors have already enough to chew on, so don’t make life harder for them. Tell them everything, regardless of what you think they may think. They are paid for helping, so help them to help you as good as possible.

I know this is a stern lecture, but it is meant seriously. I would give the exactly same lecture to our son or to-be son in law in similar situations. Because I love them.

And to you I do it because I respect you and want to give my best advice. Maybe you read over this telling yourself “why on earth should I listen to a middle-aged guy on the web whom I even don’t know?” Or you start thinking about yourself from a new point and start getting back the control of your life.

It’s your decision.

Richard65

No I’m in very good shape actually, always have been.

Got blood work done, everything is fine (testosterone, free testosterone) Thyroid is fine etc..

I get enough sunlight.

I just seem to have scar tissue or something else blocking blood flow but I am assuming it is scar tissue from what I’ve read.

That’s not what I’m thinking at all, I appreciate any advice I can get because nobody actually seems to understand or they just palm it off as something that’s mental and “all in my head”.

Over these last 7 months I’ve basically lost everything I had, every purpose I had for living and the length of time it’s taken to just be seen by a specialist (which I’m still waiting for) I think I would have been seen quicker in Afghanistan.

I was just hoping for some advice about what I can do at the moment to improve my situation, I started working recently in a dead end job that I wouldn’t have taken if I wasn’t under so much stress but this whole thing has effected my self esteem so badly that it’s a struggle for me to even get out of bed in the morning.

Surely you guys have heard of serious injuries being fixed? Especially on these forums?

Just can’t imagine my life being like this forever now, the stress and uncertainty of it is driving me crazy.

Martin another thing you could also try is to find some stuff that you really enjoy doing to help you cope with it and stay grounded. The kind of stuff that even if you lost everything you would still enjoy. Just simple, fun things, whatever those might be for you. Maybe it’s playing video games, maybe it’s taking walks and doing some photography. There’s the stuff in life that you need to accomplish and drive yourself, and then there’s the stuff that you just enjoy doing that has nothing to do with impressing anyone or succeeding. Whatever it might be for you, the point isn’t any kind of self improvement, just for fun- fun even while you have an injury.

Seems like I wasted my time telling you about my injury and recovery.

Martin

I am very much relieved that you did not get upset from my direct words.

I mean what I said, word by word. And I understand that you seek help here where the stakes of finding somebody having had the identical problem is higher than at other websites for more general medical themes.

I don’t want to talk you into thinking it’s just a mental thing. That would be insulting you when you are in despair. You describe the bodily symptons precisely enough. So yes, you have a penis injury which seems to be complicated.

All I say is that the situation has a heavy impact on your mind which, in my humble opinion, is as important as the injury of your penis. That is the reason why I think counseling is important.

To say it in blatant words: a shrink will not heal your dick. But after having lived with a broken dick for months your mind has taken damage too and this can have an impact on your dick after the MD has found a way to heal your body. Do not underestimate the power of the mind and soul on our body.

That’s basically what I can say.

And I’m glad you got a job even if it’s sub-optimal. Fills the day and the wallet, at least a bit.

I sincerely hope you find help soon, may it be here or otherwhere.

Richard65

Is it possible that this might not be scar tissue and be a vein or something else? I have a line that goes horizontally across, I am not sure if any veins rum horizontally though…

My dick feels so dead, man..

That sounds like it could be ribs, you can find more on those around the forums.
If you are in good health then your body should be able to repair minor physical damage (in my non-medical opinion). I experienced a lot of erection issues at some point, thought I was doing everything right as I worked on diet (but so much crap is sid in the nutrition world), put on some muscles, looked like I was doing great (which given a young age will make doctors play down any potential issues) , but it was not until I worked on eating low PUFAs, some coconut oil, feeding myself easily digestible foods and lots of carbs with enough proteins that my health improved . Wacky potatoes are nutrients rich and usually easy to digest. Digestion is central to health (endotoxin, serotonin …), removing most of the raw fibers I ate helped too. Outside the penis realm I have a ton less allergies and asthma, mood is better etc.. Carbs (fruits, easily digested starch, fruit juices, honey etc..) are very important to lower stress, and you sound like you experienced a major stressor that still impacts you today, working in a shit job because you lost your self esteem is icing on the cake.
I was also checking my schlong all the time, of course it only reinforced all my issues and added heaps of crap on top of them, on the other hand I could not break out of the vicious circle without proper nutrition and digestion. Zooming out and thinking about what you can do and learn is , as some people said before, a step forward.
Just my 2 cents.

I forgot that you could check the pumping threads on peyronie’s forums and the ones on here too (advocet’s thread ). I think moderator Boner7484 is dealing with some scar tissue , capernicus already suggested some stuff from his own experience, but then you don’t really know if you have scar tissue.

Its a black line?

no its feel like a line underneath the skin on the shaft, it doesn’t move when I try and massage it.

I hope it isn’t scar tissue but there’s definitely something wrong. From what I’ve read it could possibly be scar tissue or a tunica tear (which results in scar tissue).

Hopefully this isn’t a permanent thing because my dick feels so small at the moment.

What is the size of your penis now?

flaccid 3-3.5x3-3.5 down from about 4x4

and erect (when I can get erections) like 5.9x4.5 when before it was 6.5x5

will this ever actually get better?

Dude nobody can tell you that , you need to get a Doppler/ultrasound and not while flaccid only erect from my experience a flaccid Doppler its a total bullshit and waste of money my results showed that everything is fine and clearly its not the situation , now I need to wait another month for another urologist that hopefully will order me a Doppler test while erect .