Lilhelp's Search For Patience
Hello all. I figured I needed to start a log in order to allow for trend tracking and just as a way to chart progress. I’m starting out at 6”x4” (4.25” beg at 9 EQ)
My EQ is pretty good to start with in my eyes but if it increases I’ll know I just didn’t have a good idea of what a 10 EQ was.
I own a Bathgate but will probably send it back. It’s just not for me and leaks air a bit. Regardless my plan is to only do a very light routine. In no way is a big broken penis better than a small working penis. I may get an air pump. If anyone can tell me the pros and cons if the brand’s, I’ve looked at velseal, Boston pumps, la pumps, and thickwall pumps in Germany.
There are some baggage issues that I carry with me from my past regarding penis size that are also something I need to overcome. I grew up knowing my flaccid was much smaller. Then basically was dumped over it and told as much later on. I know now that there were multiple reasons but still, it messed me up.
My main goal is girth. I’m fine with my length. I’m also married with kids so time is not freely available to spend hours devoted to this. I’ll have to hope less is more. This is for me if I’m honest. My wife orgasms 99% of the time by one method or another. If I can change my girth safely I’d like to. Ultimately I have to accept myself no matter what the outcome.
So far my routine has been hot bath warm-up. Stretches and fulcrum stretches lightly. I have to go light anyways because my flaccid girth is so small that I can’t get a good trip without squeezing too hard. For some reason I always end up using my gland as a stop simply because my hand moves there anyway with the skin stretching. I definitely can feel the tendons stretch when I go straight down. When erect my penis does not like to go downward. It hurts. It can go straight out bit any further towards the floor starts to strain those tendons.
After stretching I’ve been doing 5 minutes of c grip jelqing mixed with very light ok grip jelqing. Sometimes edge for a bit with some kegels. Then warmdown.
I use some essential oils in coconut oil after.
I’m going to say I started May 1st just for ease. Somewhere around there.
I do my routine maybe 2 on 1 off but some days lighter or just stretch depending on PIs. For some reason no matter how light I go I always turtle but to be honest my post shower hang was never great hitting the cool air. I’m a total grower and my flaccid varies greatly based on environmental and psychological factors.
My penis when erect can get pretty hard. Strange thing is it gets hardest when I told it down away from my belly. It naturally points up to the belly when hard. I guess it cuts off that vein. Maybe I have a vein issue? Who knows? My penis gets hard though and I’m thinking girth gains will be tough for me. It just feels tight. We shall see. Any safe gains are fine. I know I’m below average girth and slightly above in length. Lots of guys would be so happy to have what I have even if just due to ED. It’s funny though that most guys on here are starting at my goal girth which is around 5”
Let’s see how this goes. Not going to measure for awhile. I don’t notice any gains thus far unless in length. We shall see.