Life change's and goals for a better life!
First off if a mod could, please, just delete my other progress thread as I did not manage to change the title of it.
I know this site is first and foremost about gaining dick size but I’m at a crossroads in my life, simply put get out there and get what’s yours and what you feel you deserve, OR just continue laying down all depressed and suicidal.
I’m as of now choosing option nr. 1. I’ve gone through so, so much personal trauma which have continued to haunt me to this day at the tender age of 34. Cancer, drug abuse, mental abuse, pictures of me spread to God know who and where. False accusations of rape(she didn’t even report me and it took 3,5 years before a g.f of hers whom I was sleeping with at the time told me what she had gone around telling people)which no one told me about. This lead to me being shunned basically by all the people I used to know as no one told me what she went around lying about for over 3,5 years!!!
This shattered my world, totally, and it has been some kind of witch hunt to kill my reputation and life, despite this I’ve managed to sleep with 60+ women and ALWAYS told girls I was in a serious relationship with about the lies being spread. My conscience is 100% clean in that area, hence my ability to talk about it.
Now I’m gonna stop let this ruin my life, set myself some serious goals as, stupid enough, gaining some size has really impacted my confidence enough to finally do so.
Instead of focusing on my many lackings in life, it’s a long, long list Imma focus on my good sides and what I actually have.
I’m fit as fuck with a 6 pack and still looking buff in clothes. I got the worlds best dog, my Staffie named Samson who also is a super buff “dude”. I’ve finally gotten control over my former drug abuse, only thing I’ll let myself do from time to time is smoking some hashish or weed. I no longer drink to get drunk and mostly just stay away from both alcohol and hard drugs like meth, coke, mdmda, acid shrooms and so forth. I am on 16mg’s of subs a day and contemplating cutting that dose at least in half as it’s a poison about 400 times stronger than morphine when compared mg to mg.
Potential future goals: Getting a fitness and health education, like becoming a personal trainer and food consultant. Finally getting a second dog as getting my dog has been a slow but sure life changer for me and I’ve always wanted to have at least 2. Implementing yoga and meditation on a daily basis in my life, for mental and physical health(mostly mental as my physical health is pretty good already). Getting more self confident and not letting people push me over the top as I’ve, to my surprise, started getting insanely violent and even have trouble controlling it at times. Guess all the backstabbing, constant lies, false rumours and so forth finally pushed me over the edge.
Any words of encouragement is highly appreciated as I got no one in my life doing so. It’s no fun being a social reject because of shit you didn’t even do, it’s gotten me suicidal and depressed like nothing else.