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Think I’m gonna do my routine a second time today as well, erections are rock solid even after doubling up on my routine. All good in that department.

Also gonna start reading responses more thoroughly from now on, this morning I chugged down 2 L of black coffee in about 3 h which made me a bit on edge. Bad excuse I know, and honestly trying to better myself. Being so grumpy and insecure as I can be ain’t very appealing, I get that. So again, my sincerest apologies for some of my responses early this morning. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again I’m my worst enemy at times, jumping to conclusions in full “attack” mode.

Hope the people that tried to help and give advice can forgive me in the end, I know y’all trying to help a fellow brother out who’s made so, so many bad choices in life it’s ridiculous and laughable. I’m the ex addict on Suboxone here, so that alone should tell anyone I’ve failed pretty hard so far and I’ll happily admit it too.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Hi Abdiel,

I’m not gonna teach you anything because you already know it, but you need to learn to relax. I know you’re having a hard time right now but anger isn’t going to solve anything. I’m a nervous guy like you, I used to box like you, and it felt good. Do you have some hobby? I like to read: novels, short stories, philosophy, poetry, etc. Reading is many things for me, including a form of meditation. You could write what you’re going through, find the best way to express it. I think art is the best way to express what’s ineffable: existential experiences. That’s just an example.

I think you extrapolated what has been said to you in this thread. You let anger cloud your mind. We all do that sometimes. Some can have issues dealing with it, like you and me and many others.

Being mad at somebody is like drinking poison hoping that person you’re mad at will die of it.


BPEL: 6,8" MEG: 5,4" BPFSL: 7,2" (Started on August 2017)

1 month break in December

BPEL: 7,52" MEG: 5,55" (January 2018)

Hi, thanks for taking the time to respond again. Yeah, my anger is gonna get me in serious trouble one day as I two weeks ago went to the doorstep of a guy I know to beat him up, but he started crying so I just couldn’t do it. What I’m saying is, yes, I let it cloud any constructive thought processes and don’t think things through and pretty much let the anger and my impulsiveness take control.
It’s a very unstable and energy draining way to live, so about a week after that incident I just started learning Spanish on the internet, which I find very giving as being able to communicate with people in their native tongue is something I strive for. Think I’m gonna learn French as well, just to keep my mind occupied until I am given the get go to start my fitness and health education.(I LOVE fitness and general nutrition knowledge)

I’ve also incorporated self hypnosis/meditation, also about a week after it, just for the purpose of learning to relax, especially in social settings where I’m always on the lookout for people talking smack about me and such. I do the self hypnosis/relaxation thing for at least 1 h a day. In the end I wanna be able to just verbally tell them, that’s not acceptable and mostly just brush it off and ignore it, as a true self confident person would. Like, maybe just laugh it off.

Might also start reading again, believe it or not I’ve got 3 shelves filled with books in my apartment, mostly crime novels I must admit, some self help books and some biographies of interesting people that live or have lived in this, at times, wonderful world.

I know I have two very different sides of me struggling with each other, as in a very good side and a very bad side. I just gotta learn, and know that the good side is the way for a long and healthy life. Especially if I ever want to have friends or a G.F again. As it is now I can understand why most people don’t wanna know of me, and at the same time I do know some of the lies being told that makes them not even wanna talk to me to begin with. So it’s a double edged sword, so to speak, but there’s really no need to self impale on it by acting like a total fool.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Originally Posted by Abdiel
Yeah, it’s actually a really good idea, but problem is no one would come to it except maybe my parents and maybe 2 other relatives(Yeah, it’s that bad, believe it or not). I’ve tried telling people the truth so many times by now, but to no avail. Things has actually just escalated after telling my side of all the stories about me, hence my anger at the boiling point every time I go outside.

I often contemplate the damage I could do to a man as I’m quite strong and know how to box. When I used to kickbox I simply loved the sparring part as I got to inflict some of my anger upon whomever I was sparring at the moment.
Unfortunately the club closed down, not enough interest I guess.

Only alternative I’ve got as of now is to try and make some friends at this “get people in work again” place that I used to go to, but it took about 2 days before the talking behind my back started there as well. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve almost just given up, and every time I’m so lucky to meet someone that actually doesn’t know me it lasts a few days before they start asking and digging, before never talking to me again. And I’m so colored by these bad experiences that I now just expect it to happen.

Have even moved to a different city 3 times, but somehow my rep keeps on rolling there as well so no chance is really given to get to know people long term. Sure, I might not be the easiest of humans to deal with anymore but a chance of some sorts would be wonderful. In my teens I always had friends, females that liked me and all those wonderful things that comes with the territory.

Got so fed up by being lonely that I invited a Jehovas Witness to my home, but the “brainwashing” soon started and it’s just too extreme for my taste. But it’s really appealing the whole social aspect of it. Maybe just fake it to get some “friends”. Have also considered going to the local newspaper with my story and even giving them a copy of my “certificate of good conduct” just to show them exactly what I’ve done wrong in my life as there is nothing there that can’t handle the light of day, so to speak.

Anyway, thanks for your suggestion and just you responding. Not used to anyone showing any form of interest in me for the last 4-5 years, I think. Except for my shrink that is.

I thought I might hit a nerve but that wasn’t my intention. I don’t blame you for being angry with my comments. But here is why I said what I said:

1. You often contemplate damaging people.

2. You admit to be hard to handle at times.

3. You considered faking belief in the jehovas witness religion.

4. You are not used to people showing interest in you.

Now my more specific response:

1. Thinking about hurting people is not good. I’m sure you know that. Your thoughts become your actions in one way or another. This could indicate that people might sense that it’s a possibility that you might hurt them. Meaning people would probably want to stay away from you.

2. If you know you are hard to handle, and have no body around to help you get a handle then something needs to change with your ability to handle yourself.

3. Why not be true to yourself and find people out there that have the same interests and beliefs as you do. No matter what your interest or beliefs are, there is a group somewhere with the same ones.

4. Being used to people not showing interest in you means you are probably expecting it. If you are expecting people not to show interest in you then you will definitely have no one interested in you.

I never meant to call you a liar and own up to raping a girl. I honestly believe you when you say you didn’t. Also what you owned up to in a previous post were all terrible things to say about yourself. That is also not what you need to be doing. Specifically you need to think about why you call yourself those things and who you blame and why for you being those things.

This will probably be my last post in regards to this thread. For some reason I felt the need to clarify. Maybe it was because of your capital fu or maybe because I got angry at you getting angry when I was just trying to help.

Anyways I hope this post does not hit a nerve but in all honesty I dont really care if it does. Everything I have said is pure speculation as I do not know you at all. At the very least you should think it over and not get heated over some one else opinion or two cents. I really do wish you the best and I really hope everything works out for you.

If it helps, I can tell that Ive had anger issues too. Im an gambling addict and I can tell how frustfrating it is. Its gonna be ok.


|||||Start: 14cm NBPEL|||||Now: 17,5cm NBPEL|||||Goal: 20cm NBPEL||||

But we're never gonna survive, unless we get a little crazy.

Originally Posted by AndyB123
I thought I might hit a nerve but that wasn’t my intention. I don’t blame you for being angry with my comments. But here is why I said what I said:

1. You often contemplate damaging people.

2. You admit to be hard to handle at times.

3. You considered faking belief in the jehovas witness religion.

4. You are not used to people showing interest in you.

Now my more specific response:

1. Thinking about hurting people is not good. I’m sure you know that. Your thoughts become your actions in one way or another. This could indicate that people might sense that it’s a possibility that you might hurt them. Meaning people would probably want to stay away from you.

2. If you know you are hard to handle, and have no body around to help you get a handle then something needs to change with your ability to handle yourself.

3. Why not be true to yourself and find people out there that have the same interests and beliefs as you do. No matter what your interest or beliefs are, there is a group somewhere with the same ones.

4. Being used to people not showing interest in you means you are probably expecting it. If you are expecting people not to show interest in you then you will definitely have no one interested in you.

I never meant to call you a liar and own up to raping a girl. I honestly believe you when you say you didn’t. Also what you owned up to in a previous post were all terrible things to say about yourself. That is also not what you need to be doing. Specifically you need to think about why you call yourself those things and who you blame and why for you being those things.

This will probably be my last post in regards to this thread. For some reason I felt the need to clarify. Maybe it was because of your capital fu or maybe because I got angry at you getting angry when I was just trying to help.

Anyways I hope this post does not hit a nerve but in all honesty I dont really care if it does. Everything I have said is pure speculation as I do not know you at all. At the very least you should think it over and not get heated over some one else opinion or two cents. I really do wish you the best and I really hope everything works out for you.

Thanks for taking the time after me just telling you right off, I think, to be totally honest it’s some sort of defense mechanism. Like, “stay away from me, or this and this will happen”, like I want to hurt people before they hurt me, maybe. Not too good at explaining how I feel at times.

And yes, I need to stop telling myself bad shit, hence why I’m doing the self hypnosis/meditation at least 1 h a day, and to become more calm and socialize in a better way.
All the negativity that has come my way over the years has been internalized by me, stupid as it is to do something like that, but it’s just that it has become overwhelming at times.

Now, I’m finally starting to feel like I’m getting a handle at it these days, some days are better than others but that’s just the way life is. No more masking how I feel with drugs though, which is a really big step in the right direction. Now I’m trying to do constructive things with my time, like spending time with my family, learning a new language, doing what I can to get my education going, and finally knowing what I want to work with. Which is helping people getting in better shape and eating more healthy as it almost seems like there’s some sort of obesity epidemic going on in the world in general, at least in western countries, from what I observe on a daily basis.

And last but not least thank you for saying that regarding the rape accusation. People that really know me knows that just ain’t me, and frankly it’s quite hurtful that some people believe I’m capable of doing something like that. I LOVE the female body, as long as they’re fit that is, and could not even imagine forcing myself like that on someone, or drug them down to do something like that. I really don’t get how someone could have sex with a human that’s basically in a coma, it would give me absolutely nothing, honest to God.

It took me years before I managed to talk about it, and when this girl that I was sleeping with at the time told me what was going on it got to me so bad that I just wrote myself into a psychiatric ward/place for people struggling in life and even there I could not talk about it. It got me so down and paranoid as I didn’t even know who or how many people she had been lying to and it all started to make sense why people I used to know wasn’t even talking to me anymore. It shook my world, and world view really, really bad and no one can understand how bad it feels to be accused of something like that while being innocent, unless they’ve gone through something like that themselves.

Today has been a really good day, and will do my best to keep it going this way and not let stuff get to me as easily as I’ve done in the past. Because all it does is make me depressed and anxious. It’s no way to live and I’m too good of a person to keep on self destructing like that.

And my sincerest apologies and a big thank you for being the bigger man and responding in a good manner. Much, much appreciated.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Originally Posted by Kjdeet
If it helps, I can tell that Ive had anger issues too. Im an gambling addict and I can tell how frustfrating it is. Its gonna be ok.

Thank you very much Kjdeet, for your words of encouragement, much appreciated. Yeah, I think everyone got some sort of ‘issue’, whatever that might be, in our cases it’s addiction and anger. At least we know it and can work on it.

How’s it going with your gambling addiction, if I may ask? (Have known and met a few gambling addicts that basically has gambled both their families and economy to the ground. So I know that ain’t easy to deal with either, and please, stay away from hard drugs as it’s really easy to direct one’s addiction onto something else, like hard drugs.)


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Originally Posted by Abdiel
Thank you very much Kjdeet, for your words of encouragement, much appreciated. Yeah, I think everyone got some sort of ‘issue’, whatever that might be, in our cases it’s addiction and anger. At least we know it and can work on it.

How’s it going with your gambling addiction, if I may ask? (Have known and met a few gambling addicts that basically has gambled both their families and economy to the ground. So I know that ain’t easy to deal with either, and please, stay away from hard drugs as it’s really easy to direct one’s addiction onto something else, like hard drugs.)

Well, I keep enough money for food, bills, rent etc. But I gamble the rest. For example I play online casino and nothing else gives me joy. But if I havent played for a day or two then I can again enjoy normal things. Many times I get paid from work I can easily lose 500+€ in a few hours. But Im not the worst kind of gambling addict at least.

The only drug I take is cigarettes.


|||||Start: 14cm NBPEL|||||Now: 17,5cm NBPEL|||||Goal: 20cm NBPEL||||

But we're never gonna survive, unless we get a little crazy.

Still going strong, just took 1,5 days off to let my scar heal a little. Extending at 7,5” as of now, only 1,3 cm missing to have all the metal pieces mounted onto the extender arm.
Gonna stay at this extending length for quite some time as I’m at the breaking point of how far I can stretch my unit.
Also doing my manual routine, which I’ve switched up with half and half of A-stretches and your basic stretches. Just trying it out to see if there’s any difference in size within a month as the A-stretch primarily focuses on the top of my shaft.

EQ still good and so are my PI’s, longer and fuller hang all day and frequent erections, especially at night. Honestly feel like I did in my teens with being horny and gotta say it sure feels good which again goes to show how much I needed my low, but very effective dose of Nebido/TRT every 10 weeks.
Also I’ve done two steroid cycles and always found it a hassle to inject every second day or 2- 3 times a week, all depending on which ester I was injecting at the time.

Promised myself a new start and it seems to be working slowly but surely. Anxiety is much more manageable, my mood is a bit more stable even smiling more than just a few weeks ago.
Still got loads and loads of work to do in becoming a bigger and better version of myself. And as of today I feel quite certain I’ll get there with some time and tons of positive self affirmations.
Gonna be the most well endowed, happy and successful ex-addict there is, by anyone’s standards.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Not trying to bump my thread, just saying to myself and everyone else that I’m gonna reach 9x6 inches. In a perfect world I would reach this come next summer, but my logic side tells me it will take much longer than that. But 8 inches come next summer I see as very attainable.

Might even invest in a quality penis pump just to experiment a little and see where it gets me, as of now I’m pretty damn content with using my extender as much as I can endure in a day.
Would be so good if I could wear it when going outside as well, but at the length I’m extending there’s no way to hide it. Need to wear a damn skirt due to how long the extender arms are and the contours of the extender is always showing through even with denim jeans+ they would need to be baggy as fuark.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

YES!! Just measured a new personal best!! 7,48” BP(19cm)!! Don’t know really if I have had some sort of insane growth spur or just measured wrong before but have triple checked and god damn, so pleased with this!!

Now on to my manual routine and finish off in the extender for about 30 minutes.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Nice, congratlutaions! What is your NBPEL?


|||||Start: 14cm NBPEL|||||Now: 17,5cm NBPEL|||||Goal: 20cm NBPEL||||

But we're never gonna survive, unless we get a little crazy.

Around 17-17,5 cm on a good day. So let’s say 17+/- a few mm’s. Around same as you I see, guess we’re “cockbrethren” then, lol. I got very little fat on my abdomen/stomach.

BTW really good to see you’re still on this forum, a lot of “old timers” that have quit it seems.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

Yesterday: 3 h of extending+ 30 minutes of manual stretches(A-stretches and basic ones) finished off with 60 low erection 5-7 sec jelqs.

Unit feeling really, really good had frequent erections through the night(I even wake up sometimes during the night with raging hard ons) and the good ol’ morning salute from my flag pole.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

6,5 hours of exending yesterday.


“There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. A high-powered mutant of some kind never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die.”-Hunter.S.Thompson-

As long as a big can of Gillette shaving cream(7,5" or 19 cm), with picture proof in the 'full body picture' section. Pictures is the ultimate proof in the pudding, IMO.

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