First Step of My Journey
Right off the bat I’m gonna let you know this is gonna be a little long. Please enjoy the read as I explain the past year to you.
First off I’d like to thank everyone who participates on this site. I’ve been lurking for a while and found that I’m not alone in my quest and there thousands of people out there, just like me, who have made this place feel like a family to me.
I’ve never really thought a lot about my size before. I’ve always heard that there’s nothing you can do about it and it just is what it is. Luckily the few girls that I’ve been with always seemed surprise on how “big” it was to them so I always thought I was doing well. Wouldn’t you know it though that my luck finally ran out.
I finally met a girl who I can see spending the rest of my life with and I’ve never been happier. The only problem is recently we’ve had a talk about previous sexual encounters and I asked the most stupid question any man could ask a woman about her history. I’m smaller. When I asked her that question and I saw her face, I’ve never felt such an emotion of disappointment, jealousy, rage, inadequacy, hopelessness, and depression all at the same time. I felt like my heart was breaking. Along with the previous stupid question of “Am I the biggest?”, I also asked if she would like it more if I was bigger. She didn’t answer with her mouth, but her eyes told me. I know, I know! I set myself up for this kinda hurt. I thought I would have to live the rest of my life knowing I “lost” to a drunken hook up during a period of her life where she was going through depression. I lost to a guy who never loved her, will never love her, and will never see her again. I wanted to be everything that she’s ever wanted and now I know how she really feels. Somebody that doesn’t care about her satisfied her more sexually than I can.
It has consumed my every waking thought.
This is when I became interested in PE. Through this website and all of your testimonies I have decided to change. I will not be less than everything my future wife needs to be completely happy. I’ve started weight lifting and eating right. I’ve also just started my first week of PE through a forum from here. The Newbie.
I know that this will take time and I have taken all safety precautions and have read multiple threads on how to do the exercises correctly and safely. I am eager but not rushed. I will be posting updates regularly with my progress.
5 min warmup with hot towel
2 min manual stretches (you,d,l,r, circular) 2 sets @ 30 seconds
10 min light (and I mean light) wet jelq (roughly 3 seconds)
Warm down (I just jump in the shower)
50 kegels (5 second hold)
If anybody has any comments, tips, advice (on any aspect of the above) please don’t hesitate!
I’m starting PE because my future wife was with some bigger and I feel inadequate.