Building motivation. and confidence
Hi all, I’m glad to be posting here, and welcome and advice or remarks because from reading other posts you guys seem experienced and helpful. I wanted to write a bit of personal experience, mixed with a brief description of my routine. I hope that it’s good to read.
So I actually found Thunder’s because I injured myself masturbating (aggressively stretching/jelqing in one session) and clearly caused enough trauma to make some scar tissue because it hurt to get an erection and after a while the end of my dick started to bend (Peyronie’s). Reading that it could get worse for about a year until the pain goes away, I found out that stretching it should help. So I bought an X4 extender and was using that a bit (have logged all hours) and more recently started manual stretching and jelqing. On the painful bend: this was about 6 months ago and I generally find that if I stretch regularly the pain is less and the bend hasn’t got worse so far, but also not yet corrected. Luckily it’s not too noticeable. I will start adding some “counter-bend” fulcrum stretches every now and again.
My current “routine” is that whenever I have time and such I will do manual stretches in a few directions (30 sec - 1 minute each), will wear an extender when I can (but not so keen on this any more since it restricts blood flow. May buy one of those suction ones. Currently wearing it for only a dozen hours a month), and occasionally do some oiled jelqing with relatively high erection level. On average that means doing some kind of exercise on about 12 days a month. I’m aiming to up the frequency a bit.
What turned my bend and pain correction into seeking to add size was two things. One: greed and envy - one of the bonuses of extending is potentially gaining length which I would have been happy with, and two: I met a new girlfriend. My previous girlfriend was pretty horny and eager to please, we had a lot of sex and she did whatever I wanted. She loved me and my dick and thought it was big, and always built up my confidence. We seemed to perfectly fit together in that when I pushed my dick into her right at the end I would be stretching out her back wall, she would moan like crazy and it would also feel amazing for me. So my confidence was pretty high in that respect, and since I have a pretty good body (not super muscly but generally lean), walking around naked and stuff felt good to show off. I guess though at 5.5” NBP x 4.75” I was pretty much bang on average in respect of penis size.
My new girlfriend was not a massive extrovert like the old one, and didn’t squirt, didn’t pay compliments all day long, and.. You get the idea. Troubling was that (bear in mind I was working through the painful erection most of the time) she didn’t have orgasms with me, and due to the comparison I had (only 1 month between girlfriends! Yeah I know, I just couldn’t resist) this really bothered me. So I tried to get her to be more expressive and talk about sexy stuff more, to be a bit more sexual in general because she was oftentimes quite inactive and not proactive. So we tried different stuff and after a while she started having orgasms with me, but basically only when I was 100% inside her in the positions offering maximum depth. And even then it was maybe one orgasm per week, rather than 2 per day. So I asked her about whether her ex boyfriends had made her cum, and she wasn’t so specific but didn’t imply that there was any problem. After a couple of months she stopped having orgasms, because it felt like her pussy was just expanding over time so when I used to hit the end, now I wasn’t. I asked her whether her ex boyfriends had bigger penises, and she said that generally they did, but not all of them. Still when we have sex, she goes crazy for deeper penetration but I just can’t maintain pushing deep enough to give her an orgasm. Over the last few months, my penis has grown to 6” NBP x 4.9”, but alas so has her pussy grown along with it!
We went to the naked sauna the other day, and I stupidly asked how I compared to the other guys around, which she took to meaning “all guys in general”. I asked this because I thought that at 3.5-4” flaccid NBP I was looking pretty decent and she would just give me a complement and move on. She answered however that when flaccid I’m smaller than average, and I would need to be erect to compete for a big flaccid. She’s a sweet, pretty, introverted girl and likes me a lot and didn’t mean anything whatsoever in a negative way, she was just being honest from her experience. She also said that I am a larger medium when erect. And then later said that she meant that I’m a grower, not a shower, which I was surprised about but apparently some guys can just go from 5” flaccid to 6” erect (my example, she did not give one).
I guess I wrote all of this because, probably like many of you, I am a little preoccupied with, and sensitive about the size of my penis and my recent experience with my current girlfriend has shattered my confidence somewhat. So I guess my only course of action is to get into a solid PE routine and put on an inch or so. Any thoughts, support or advice from the community?
