i typed this long ass update in thornes lab after logging in and then it told me to log in again and then the post was gone. i sent an e-mail through the e-mail link to see if it was possible to recover it, but i never got a response. i was bummed because it took a lot of time and i had a lot to say, and whenever i try and rewrite a letter, it loses a lot. anyway, i’ll give you a real short version…
it’s interesting. many aspects are just phenomenal. for example, she is all about pleasing me 24-7. our sex life is great. she wants me a lot, and i can have her when/where/however i want as much as i want. she gives me attention nonstop to the point where it can be overbearing. it turns out that she really was confused and having an identity crisis as a result of not knowing herself very well and naivete’. turning 21 and hitting the bar scene and moving into a house with a very cliquish social group catalyzed that whole deal as well. the events that did occur still affect my outlook for the future, i’m sad to say. but all we can do is take it momen by moment and see where it leads us. there was a point where i had to tell her that if she wants to be with me than she has to want that in the moment and not have it be contingent upon the future. i told her that she should leave if that isn’t what she wants and that i would be sad to see her go, but that i can’t offer what i don’t have. and no, she’s not even close to dumping me at all.
hey man, no hard feelings from when our wires got crossed.
as always, peace,