PE and Mental health - Maybe you can relate
First, to the mods, if this is in the wrong place please move it. Thank you.
Maybe you feel like me. I’ll come right out and say it: PE is a double edged sword. It obviously works and Thunder’s is a great place to get information, but at the same time, I feel inadequate and that I won’t reach my goal of 8x6 fast enough (I’ll explain that in a second). The second thing I worry about is whether or not 8x6 will make me happy. What if I get to 8x6 and I still don’t fill my gf up? I don’t have ANY problems making her cum right now, so why do I feel this way? I remember about 2 years ago, her friend bought her a vibrator for laughs. It was 8x6. We played with it and she took both the length and the girth with no problems. That day totally wrecked my self-esteem. I can honestly tell you that I never had any ‘small dick’ problems before that. She stuck it ALL the way inside to the hilt. My penis is 7.25x5 basically. Only an inch away from my goal in both length and girth, yet I feel very inadequate. What throws me for a real loop is the fact that I’ve bottomed out on her a couple of times. And the first time I did she came so hard and so fast. BUT SHE WAS ABLE TO TAKE 8 INCHES THAT OTHER DAY!! WTF?? She says my thickness is not too big and definitely not small seeing as how I make her sore after about 20 minutes. BUT I SAW HER TAKE 6 INCHES OF GIRTH THAT DAY!! WTF??
I admit, I have a terrible problem with patience. I don’t have any; but I do understand that PE takes time. Just like weight lifting, you can’t get huge in 2 months or even 6 months unless you really dedicate yourself. So, in a way, it’s like a form of slow, reverse torture.
Like I said, Thunder’s is a good place for information, but at the same time, I get depressed/jealous/intimidated when I read about some of the stuff on here. Such as
People that already have huge dicks (I’m just jealous haha)
Guys that take more than a year to gain 1 inch of girth. (What if I take that long?)
Guys that get really big then find out that they still aren’t filling their wives up.
All of different theories (Quantity v quality, masturbation effecting gains, tunica v lig stretching, ect)
All of the different ADSs and other devices (which one is the best/most comfortable?! I don’t have money for them all!)
And most notably this video xhamster.com/movies/176070/big_dicks_amp_lusty_chicks_comp_vol_5.html (HUUUGE self-esteem killer)
I know I’m not the only one that feels like this. It’s really affecting my life. When I’m at school I’m thinking, “damn! I need to go home so I can PE”. When I’m at work I’m thinking, “damn! I need to go home so I can PE”. I’m always thinking about my dick. When I’m home on the weekends, I usually spend about 4 to 5 hours on yahoo searching things like “8 (9, 10,11) inch cock, biggest dick in the world, thick penis, does size matter” and other related topics. My dick and it’s lack of size is always on my mind. I am very aware that I technically have a larger than average dick, but one thing TOTALLY overshadows that: I SAW HER TAKE 8x6 WITH NO COMPLAINTS AND I KNOW MY 7.25x5 CAN’T POSSIBLY BE AS SATISFYING!! I mean straight up ramming that mother fucker inside her.
What’s funny is I remember my biology teacher telling us that he watched his wife give birth. He said he saw how big her vagina got and it messed him up in the head, forcing him to feel like he would never be able to satisfy her again. He had to go to counseling over it. They didn’t have sex for a year, he said. I feel like I have a mild version of that.
I don’t really know why I’m typing all of this. Maybe to just get if off my chest, but it’s really getting to me now. I wish I could have just been born with a big dick, but it wasn’t meant to be. I wish I could have enough self-confidence to not let my size bother me (like I said.I’m technically larger than average). I wish I wasn’t obsessed with my penis. I wish PE was just a matter of popping a couple of pills, but it’s not. I wish it didn’t take so long to get bigger. I wish I wasn’t around when she was playing with that toy that afternoon.
Thank you for your time. You don’t have to reply, if you don’t want to. I’m really just getting shit of my chest.
Last edited by marinera : 11-15-2009 at .