Obsessed With Comparisons!
Is anyone else obsessed with comparing their size to others?
I’ve always compared myself to porn like images I saw when I was a kid. This caused me to be very insecure seeing that was half the size those men appeared to be. I imagined that most men walking down the street were like them. Now that I’ve ‘grown’ (in maturity and size), I’m obsessed with comparing myself to every man walking. I guess I’m trying to correct those misconceptions I had all this time. I don’t view porn anymore, so I’m going from memory. I’m always wondering how I stack up to those porn guys I use to compare myself too. Its like I desperately want to be like them, desperately want to feel normal. Now I know everyone will chime in that those guys aren’t “normal”. And I agree. But there seemed to be so many of them, and nobody that looked like me.
Now that I’m larger, I feel like I need to prove to myself that I’m at least close to their size. Even though I remember them as 10”+, most were probably 8”-9” in reality. Now that I’m 7.5” I need to know how I measure up. Was it camera angles that made them look so huge?
Am I going crazy or can some of you relate?
2003: 5.75" BPEL, 3" Flacid /2004: 6.75" BPEL, 5" Flacid
2007: 7.5" BPEL, 5.5" Flacid /NOW: 8" BPEL, 5.74" Flacid
/Goal: 8.5" BPEL, 6" Flacid