My On-going Motivation - What's Yours (long story)
I’ve been at this PE thing for a few years now and motivation levels can vary immensely. Well I have a story that has got me back on track and also showed me how inadequate I feel and how much I am affected by this thing called a penis.
It goes back a fair way but my wife and I have some very close friends, a married couple who we have gone camping with, had many dinners, lots of drinks and plenty of good times over the last few years. There has always been something simmering between the four of us which has come out on a few occasions but nothing serious.
A = Me aged 36, married my teenage sweetheart never been with another woman
K = My wife, aged 35, of 10 years who also had never been with another man
M = Burly male friend aged 34 - Cross between Crocodile Dundee & Steve Urwin.
V = His attractive wife who is a few years younger than the rest of us at 28.
V has always talked about M’s dick and said that from day one, it was the biggest amongst the many partners she has had. She talks about how it just fits in here mouth and stuff like that. M says it’s a “myth” and that he always felt insecure in the showers after footy as it suffers from the “mushroom factor” and didn’t hang at all.
K has always been happy with my size and suggests that it’s long and has never complained and we have a reasonable hit rate in terms of her orgasm from penetration only. However, she has no benchmark on which to measure and was blissfully unaware of what else might be out there.
A couple of years ago, at the campfire one evening, we all got fairly drunk and the topic headed it’s usual direction to sex and all related topics including dicks. The girls curiosity was such that they wanted to see the “myth” and compare it to a longer unit.
The result was a huge dose of stage fright on my behalf as I have always been fairly self conscious and had never been in the spotlight like this. M on the other had rose to the occasion and popped out a girthy dick with a large head and about 80% hard. It’s not long, probably 5” but it would be 6” around with a large head and quite impressive against my 20% flaccid which would have been 4-5” long and 4.5” around with a small head.
Regardless, M has stuck by his “myth” and, based on what I had seen, I have disagreed saying that girls love wide and thick.T hinner and longer may hang better in the shower but he had the volume advantage. So over the last few years I have been pumping, jelqing and stretching to try and improve things down there so that my next stage event might go a little better.
K knows I PE and has enjoyed the results and has encourage me to keep doing my “exercises” if it makes me happy. There is no doubt, on paper, that when “on song” my package is fine and I have moved from around 7x5 bpel to 7.5x5.25 bpel (hard gainer here). And when I’m alone with K it’s all strong and good but as soon as M & V are around, I’m a goner and it’s frustrating.
So on to my latest story and the reason for the title of this post.
M&V were coming to dinner, all kids were with baby sitters, the night was ours. Everyone dressed well and I was cooking up a feast with plenty to drink and nice music as well. The night went so fast, we ate, drank and got merry with the conversation moving to what games we could play. The usual stuff was bypassed and we made up our own game using just a dice.
Round 1 - dice roll
1 = player tells fantasy
2 = player ask any other player fantasy
3 = player dare partner
4 = player truth partner
5 = player dare any other
6 = player truth any other
It was during these rounds that dares of kissing of opposite partners was suggested and complied with, nothing serious just a quick kiss.
We soon bored of this…
Round 2 - dice roll
1 = player kiss opposite partner
2 = player grab crouch of opposite partner
3 = play kiss same gender - girls said that if we want them to kiss we have to as well!!!!!
4 = male player grab breast of opposite girl, if girl rolls miss a turn
5 = girl player grab crouch of apposite male, if male rolls miss a turn
6 = player kiss and grab breast/crouch of opposite player
Well this heightened the mood and got us all fired up. I was travelling well and was generating a reasonable package in the crouch region for V to grab. V tells me to kiss more softly!! K likes it when I kiss firmly so already these girls like it different ways. Boys end up saying no-way when either rolls a 3 but girls happy to oblige, wow!
We enjoyed this for a time but were ready to take the next step…
Round 3 - dice roll
1/2/3 = girl player get tits out - boys miss a turn
4/5/6 = lads get dick out - girls miss a turn
Well, my stage fright returned big style. M was revealing a hard as rock, thick large headed package and I was reluctantly revealing my 5x4.5 full flaccid…ahhhhh! K pipes up and says where is that big, long and hard dick that you have for me and I just own up to stage fright when confronted with the “myth” to try an lighted things. Both V&K (the girls) the offer to do what ever it takes to get my package going as K again back me up and offers encouragement that it’s a good package suffering stage fright.
Well I don’t know where I plucked the courage, I was desperate I guess, but I offered the following scenario:
Lets move to the 3 seater couch, K sitting in between M & Me with V straddling K. K & V to the kiss while each has a hand on M’s & My dick which are unzipped, so flesh on flesh. I said that surely this would have to get my loins responding.
To our utter amazement, the girls were happy to do this. So there we were, the girls kissing while holding the lads dicks, so each lad had a hand from K & V gently stroking while they kissed each other!!! M was now busting and my plan had back fired as I was still struggling. V moved from K and straddled me during this heated moment and M moved on top on K all the while the girl kept opposite partner dicks in hand. The next little while we were one on one with opposite partners and enjoying a very rare moment. That said I was still flaccid….I can’t believe what I’m writing, because right now I’m hard telling the story but when knowing M was there, hard and impressive I struggled.
Things settled down and reality caught up with us, it was time to go home.
K & I talked plenty about what happened and after a long time just skirting around the real issues, we both agreed that we found the encounter invigorating and exciting. K asked why I would not put on the impressive showing for V that she knew I was capable and V was nice looking with a great body, but I was not sure and put it down to being massively self conscious of my dick.
I finally get to my point….
M may not have the length but sure has an impressive package, even at a dinner this week I was amazed to hear my wife say to V that she appreciates how hard it must be to oral M due to his width!!! I quote ” I have held that thing….” Well that’s it, I’ve been pumping using my bigger cylinder and doing a massive work out each night to try and break the same/same PE that I have done day in and day out for several years. I told my wife that I’m trying to break routine and she understands and again is supportive of what I want to do.
Now some disclaimers/findings:
-I love my wife and I have a good sized dick.
-She loves me and we have no intentions of leaving each other
-We loved the ability to bring other sexual encounters into our relationship without cheating.
-When I’m with my wife it fires up to it’s best proportions
-I actually found it a turn on to see my wife enjoy another
-We have never swapped or engage in swinging but can no see some appeal
-My wife wants me to put up a proud showing, somethings she knows I am capable of.
Well there you have it, I’m in the midst of a PE frenzy, within reason, and am totally motivated to work harder towards the next event.
PS: 16th Dec the girls are arranging a spa party!!!! OMG, I’ve only got 2 weeks to prepare. We arranged this at the same dinner when K commented about the oral thing and I openly said that I will be ordering VIAGRA!!! I don’t want to take any chances and they all laughed….they think I was joking, I’m going to investigate this option as I’m not going to flaccid up three times in a row.
PPS: Sorry for the long story, I have a feeling that I’m doing more dumping of stuff that’s on my mind that providing PE related motivation or contributions that might help others.
Character is doing what is right when nobody is watching....
Last edited by skeptdick : 11-29-2005 at .