My head is white, and other news
I have been back at it for 2 weeks. I have noticed a few things during that time. Before I get into that I will tell you a few things about myself(I have posted in the past under the controlled routines). I have always felt inadequate about my penis size. I have been teased as being gay. Which I am not gay .So needless to say having intercourse with a woman I have always felt that she was thinking I was small. An odd thing happened to me over the course of the years. I transferred my feelings for wanting to have a large penis, to becoming aroused by the sight of large penises. I found myself hard to get excited by women unless I was I having sexual relations with them .What used to be so very easy to get aroused by just the thought of a woman, and the sight has now become so very hard, even while trying to have sex. There were numerous times that it was very hard for me to get erect. I have learned over time that when I was very comfortable with the woman I had no problems with an erection. Compound this by suffering a back injury I believe may have played a part in my dysfunction. I cannot be sure. I have had scans done, and they have come back negative. I have decided to take back my sexuality. I want to revel in it. I want love myself no matter the size I am. I have stopped watching porn, and have started doing some visualization exercises retuning myself with my friend the penis, and my desire for women. It has only been a little more than a week, but already I feel better. I have yet to have an erection during the day. I almost never get them unless I am yawning. Yes yawning. If I yawn a lot I get aroused? Can anyone help tell me why this is? I have been depressed for a long time as well. I think this has had a direct effect on my sex drive. I pretty much don’t have a sex drive unless I rev up the engine so to speak. By watching porn, or initiating sex.
I am taking Virility Pills but I haven’t noticed any difference with sex drive.
I have been taking them for almost 2 months now. I am wondering how I can increase my sex drive? I would prefer to stay away from anti-depressant drugs, and such. Try to do this by natural means.
After I finished my routine tonight. I measure myself. I was amazed my what it read. I was 6.75 inches the day before, and tonight I have reached 1/8th more. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I took several readings, and at my strongest erection it read
6 .7/8th inches EBPL. God I hate fractions.
My girth is 4.5 inches.
Flaccid size 4.5
Flaccid girth 3.25
Which when I compare to when I first started a few months ago.
flacid: 4.15 inches
I took a little break that’s why I said it has been 2 weeks now. I will really believe it is working when I hit 7 inches erect. That is my short-term goal.
I will then know I am really growing, and that no amount of maneuvering of the ruler got me there. I have been reading many of the posts to educate myself on this subject. I have noticed that after my stretches. When I go into my jelqs. The head of my penis is sort of white. I have to masturbate for a bit like 10 minutes to get an erection. I feel I need to flush the area with blood so I can jelq. When I jelq the head of my penis should be red. Here is my current routine.
Warm up (hot wrap)10-20 minutes
Stretches 15 30-second stretches I do different kind of stretches. DLD (BTW DLD you are a god! I have enjoyed your contributions to the forum immensely, as well as many others!) Blaster I believe. It’s the one with penis over the left wrist while pivoting the wrist to stretch the lag. Then I do the normal pull out, and stretch from body, cranks, and then the fulcrum stretch I believe it’s called. I do a total of 15 of these, not 15 of each.
I then do 200-250 jelqs at 70% erected
15 squeezes with 10 5-second kegals in between each squeeze. My kegals total to about 80 right now.
I end this with a 10-20 minute hot wrap.
I do this as a 2 on 1 off routine.
My routine will take about an hour and a half all together.
also I have these red small veins. Is this normal? I have had them for as long as I can remember.
I would like to work on maintaining my erections so they stay longer? What can I do for this? I have to constantly keep myself stimulated or my erection will quickly fade. Any advise here?
I will do my best to keep everyone informed on my progress. I am very excited. I would love to gain more girth. I look forward to your comments, and thank you in advance.