The pain of size insecurity and my journey to a solution.
Firstly I thank Thunders sincerely for this site and all the members that answered some of my question unknowingly as I was a silent reader.
I had insecurities issues about myself and somehow my penis size was also a part of it. And so I searched through the internet at an internet cafe to sought a remedy. Then I found out that certain types of steroids increase penis size. Problem is steroids are illegal here, one needs a prescription from a doctor to buy such pharmaceutical products. And another important aspect is money, and I can’t even afford certain necessities and fulfill essential amenities(such as having a personal computer and an internet access). Therefore that prospect was out of the picture. Still I tried calling up pharmacies asking about anabolic steroids, I went up and down various hospitals but to no avail. And then I read that circumcision could increase penis size during puberty as there is no restriction of foreskin so the tissues are not hindered and are free to grow. And so I went to a gp to get referred to an urologist to get circumcision. Since I went through a doctor in the polyclinic(because it’s cheaper because of the government subsidies) but the urologist turned me down stating that I do not have phimosis and a non-Muslim hence I am not entitled to circumcision.(I tried convincing her trying to say that it’s more hygienic and I have excess foreskin/turkey neck). Still that failed.
So I returned back to searching through the internet day after day, hopefully finding another solution. Of course good old Wikipedia had stated about pumping, hanging and jelqing but risks mentioned were nerve damages and impotence. And then I read through an article about surgery that involves cutting the suspensory ligament to expose the inner penis and fats/silicon injection. As you would have guessed money was the issue and not to mention the complications involved in surgeries. So I turned down that idea as well.
Then I heard that certain herbs could stimulate the leydig cells to produce more testosterone. But one had to be aware of the ratio of the actual concentrate to the other ingredients. Again I went searching through the net and local pharmacies to get a decent product but nothing was close to my budget.
Back to the internet and let’s not even talk about paysites..
Finally after some sleepless nights of browsing through countless sites I read about a guy mentioning about Thunder’s so I checked it out and had a pleasant surprise. Here there were men like me dedicated to enlarging their penis. There were safe and effective exercises programmed to get gains. Different exercises explained in detail. Members of all walks of life, contributing a great share of their knowledge into this incredible site. Theories on how the tissues grow and how to get gains. A glossary of various terms of the penis. As a person first time reading a penis enlargement forum, I was slightly skeptical but overall it made sense. Bur it all added up when we look at the scientific aspect of it so it should work. I started reading during late November last year. I was only able to get online three times a week up to two hours each time since I did not own a pc with an internet connection.
During the beginning of December last year I decided that having a pc with an internet connection, by my side would make things easier. That was when I retrieved money from my savings account to buy a pc and signed up an internet connection. When I got that done I would spend an hour everyday browsing through the newbie forum, reading the common questions that newbies would ask and I started to get familiar with how pe worked, Thunders stated that he was going to open registration sometime after New Year, so I spent the whole day on New Year’s day pacific time to get registered. And finally I was able to do so. I am so grateful for that, previously I was unable to download the videos, do searches and read member’s diaries. Initially I got shock at the amount of content, it was a labyrinthine full of threads, I had no idea where to start. There is a whole lot more forums. And the table on the side now was updated with recent posts that was also non-pe related which was frustrating. But the content just overflows with newly added threads and I’m unable to keep up with them.
I hope to get through this journey with sheer determination and patience to achieve my dream size.
Last edited by iamaru : 01-07-2008 at .