The guy who never gets hard.
Need some advice about a serious mental issue of mine. I can’t stop thinking about it, and it’s really bothering me and making me depressed.
Let’s start from the beginning -
The first time I had sex: I was 17, and my girlfriend and I were home alone in her parents house. We had pretty good foreplay, but when we entered intercourse I just thought about how to please her, resulting in a semi-erect penis. I thought there was something seriously wrong with me. Later on I know that the problem was all in my head, but I still have that creepy feeling about being impotent or something. The relationship ended before we had even had sex 10 times.
My last relationship was actually great (ended about a year ago), and the sex was amazing. I could not have intercourse with her for the first three months, but she was really understanding and eventually made me feel secure enough to have sex with her. From there it only went one way, and the sex was amazing for booth of us. But I still needed to get head every time.. Making out and stuff doesn’t do the trick for me. But eventually this relationship ended, and it wasn’t pretty. I still think about her a lot, but there is no no way we can get back together again.
But anyways, now the insecurities are back. I can’t even make out with a girl without thinking about it. It really sucks, because I am missing loads of fun and pussy when I should be having the time of me life. I am a very attractive guy, and get tons of female attention - so no insecurities there.
For the last six months I have had about 10 girls in bed with me. On two occasion I thought “fuck it” and went on with it, which ended with me not getting it up - total humiliation. On the last and other eight occasion I’ve just spooned with them or something, avoiding having sex. I know I have to face my fears to conquer them, and get up no matter how many times I fall.. But I don’t want to be known as the guy who can’t get hard. Dilemma!
I just needed to get some weight of my shoulders, since I have no one I can talk to about this.