Our Conditioned Skepticism

I lurked for years. Look at my sig, registered 2011. The number of times I’ve attempted and given up on PE is just embarrassing. When I get to thinking about it, the reason why I quit was simple: I was skeptical. I thought this was too good to be true, too much work to be worth it, or snakeoil, some how…or morally wrong and a waste of time.

For every quiet success story on this site, there are hundreds of ‘qualified’ doctors who will assure us that PE is a silly dream and that we will probably harm ourselves. The same old spiel of ‘penis is not a muscle’, ‘risk of permanent impotence’ and always finishing up with the old ‘besides its the motion of the ocean, not the size of the boat’. Basically so many inquiries, so many authorities, so little solid evidence. This lead me to believe that this really wasn’t something possible. This meant no faith. This meant no consistent practice.

Another think rattling around in the back of my mind is that this whole things was setup to sell me hangers, extenders, pills, bathmates, whatever. You’d have to be really crazy to read the accounts of mens experiences here and conclude that they were somehow linked with organize penis snake oil. But I am guilty just a bit. The scam market may do more harm than good with their “+4 inches in 4 weeks” bullshit.

Another is that if I got a larger penis and the ‘life’ that went with it. It wouldn’t be my life. That the women I am with are with me only for size. I’d have the feeling of injustice, that a woman should be with me for who I am as I am. (layered multiple delusions about women, life, and penis size here). But in life I think there are things that while it is not bad to not have them, one should not wish them away. These include: Being in great shape, being rich, being hung, being well spoken, having a great career, having a beautiful caring spouse, etc etc. Cognitive dissonance make fools of us.

But here I am consistent and determined as ever ready to see this thing through to the very end. I feel I have broken through to new dimensions of patience and belief.

Good luck and thank you all.

It is the fact that as a human race, the culture of the “advanced” societies makes penis size a polite joke. While breast size is freely augmented and vaginas are surgically tightened after childbirth (if the option is taken) as matters of course. When you take issue with your size, you step into the area marked for the butt of size jokes.

When you sit and think on your own, you can meditate and find a way to be at ease with yourself. But…society forces that as the only option for those unhappy with their sizes. That mandate serves no purpose other than to keep those who feel weak, powerless and unhappy as weak, powerless and unhappy as possible and looking to society for validation.

When I got into PE and got results over years of searching I realized…so many things are contingent on the feeling of ‘percieved potency’ in men. It’s why men do martial arts, lift weights, make tons of money. We want status and social standing and the access to mates of our choosing that comes with it. And because supposedly you cannot affect your virility directly (which PE patently disproves) we facsimile it with fast cars, stock options and fancy clothes. Then we make fun of hung men, we attribute them layabout status, make them dumb studs in our minds, porn jokeys…while secretly wishing we could have the one thing that makes them unique but never uttering the words…so that we can tell the joke and not be the butt of the joke.

…after I got into the know…I realize that Aston Martins, Ferraris, custom tailored suits, Rolexes, and anything that costs more than 150% what the normal version of it costs…is all a facsimile’d “big cock” because we buy them to show off, to intimidate other men and earn their respect while aweing women and hopefully wooing them with the material aspects of our socially acceptable version of the mating dance.

Now…you realize these are the men that without their trappings of wealth and finery are just scared boys unsure how to go about actually talking to someone who isn’t star struck by their possessions and wealth. So many of them use these things to rate themselves, to validate their entire existences that they are able to attain these things…because supposedly, finery is the greatest thing a man can get for himself other than a mate everyone else desires. That is the point of material accumulation. Because we have no need of it. We have a social desire to use it to elevate ourselves and the ability to elevate your body at will, to become more virile and attractive…it flies in the face of every convention that says to display your value you have to pay to play and then play in the correct circles to get results.

We know all of those things. Then we know the stories of the cocky, hung stud who beds a high-powered attorney and vanishes. We write him off as a wastrel while wishing we could freely pick our partners in such a way with such impunity.

With PE you see that the social structure is a prison. Maybe you still walk the halls under duress but you understand it, the chains don’t chafe because you know eventually you’ll ascend where they can no longer bind you…because they only bind you in your mind. You may not become a hung stud, bed a millionaire’s wife and disappear…but you won’t care if anyone does and you won’t let social stigma cloud your judgement about your choices. Because you will validate yourself and walk with more pride than you ever have, instead of slinking around afraid to voice your unhappiness with the one part that supposedly cannot be changed.