On the edge
I know this is hardly the place to spill shit like this but here goes,
I think I’ve reached the end of myself, I’m only 19 I think I’m a know it all, I seem to win a lot of arguments which only makes people hate me more, I’m good looking facially (being honest here!), when it comes to body I’m skinny but chubby if you know what I mean, (pathetic) I want to improve but have little motivation, I’m subliminally being acused of being homosexual because several girls are trying to make moves but I don’t reply.. My 6 inch dick that is skinnier at the base and quite skinny all the way has me convinced pleasuring a female adiquitly is impossible (only having fucked 2 girls that were not hookers in my life, 1 I prematured in as a virgin and stayed off sex for ages, then a bunch of hookers, then an ugly slut who I couldn’t satisfy).. I lived around the world for a lot of my life, but my parents went broke and I now fend for myself at a cheap “community college”, poor people think I’m some spoilled brat because of my history, and maybe I am, I have been smoking since 10, drinking since 11 and smoking weed since 12, I’m not joking, this was overseas (not gonna say where, in which age restrictions are ignored) I’m not a depressed person to be around, my friends have honestly no idea I feel this way I don’t dress or act like an emo or a depressed person, I’m broke and keep to myself (when I was overseas I was popular, I now try to look beyond that sort of thing and hang with what I call “true friends” but so far it hasnt really done me much good. I now live in a hillbilly town, when I go to bars sometimes people pick on me because I’m small, I sometimes just think fuck it I’m not gonna take this shit and make unwise decisions to attack people, I’m on the fucking edge but nobody knows it.
What do I do,
Sorry for typos.