My "short" story and other stuff
Hello all. Well I’m finally ready to make the commitment. I can’t believe I first learned about this place over a year and a half ago and it’s taken me this long to actually get started. I’ve even had the BIB hanger in my possession for over a year already and have never once used it. Well today’s the day and I’m resolved to get it done. I shall be huge.
Stats and Goals:
My starting stats are 6.5” BPEL and 4.9” girth.
My eventual goal is 9x7 with a good flaccid hang. In terms of the perfect penis (if there is such a thing) I would almost say that 9 inches in length is too much but I’m rarely at my firmest. In fact if I’m not REALLY into it I can get as small as 5.5” which in truth really sucks because I’m constantly trying to concentrate on being rock hard so that I can feel like I’m doing a good job. With a 9 incher, I could be semi-erect at 7.5 and still fill her up from almost any angle which would make for some very relaxed love making. Of course the 9 inches would largely be for my own ego because everyone knows that it’s the girth that women really want. In fact women have no real sensation past the first one third of their vagina (as I’m sure most of you already know), which means if an average woman is between 6-7 inches in length anything past 2-3 inches is wasted - sort of. Apparently some women really enjoy that visceral sensation of having their cervix bumped and internal ligaments pulled. For others it just causes pain - so I guess it depends on the girl (and the position of her uterus), but I think (and this is the crux of it) that all girls like the looks of a huge dick. It’s like seeing a guy with big arms or a massive chest. It’s very alpha male to have an enormous penis I think, and as everyone knows - the alpha male gets the ladies, which is why having a big dick is mankind’s biggest obsession.
Anyway, I never really had issues about my penis until about midway through college I guess. My friends in college were a bunch of jokers and they were always coming up with bullshit lies on the fly to see if they could get away with it, so one day they decided to start a rumor about me that I had an enormous dick (don’t ask me why.) The analogy they came up with to try and quantify my immense size for all the curious girls in earshot was that I was hung like a “Shetland Pony” (hence my User Name). Anyway you’d think such a rumor would be great to have in college, but really the opposite was true. Why you ask? Because the girls actually bought into it and I noticed that I was starting to get a lot more attention than usual. I’d walk by girls in the dining hall and they’d whisper to each other and giggle, and I’d catch them trying to sneak a peak at my crotch.
So it finally started to dawn on me that yes.clearly SIZE IS IMPORTANT. Fuck. So great - all these girls thought I was hung like a small horse, which pretty much removed them from the dating pool. Shitty situation. So that was about 8 years ago, and my obsession with size kind of waxed and waned after that depending on the situation.
Like there were the girlfriends that had huge vaginas for instance. That never lasted long. I felt like I was screwing air and assumed that she couldn’t feel a thing either. On the plus side, like many of my average brethren I learned how to do all the other stuff very well in order to make up for my other shortcomings. Eating a girl out became my favorite thing to do. I always used to think that I liked it because I had a vagina eating fetish (which may be true), but now I’m not so sure. If I was born with a huge schlong things might have turned out differently. Still, when I finally do get massive, I’ll be able to chow box like a pro, so you know, I’ve got that goin’ for me.
Probably the worst event that really ended up crippling my sense of penis self worth was an incident I had with my last girlfriend. At the time of the initial blow I was in a phase where I really didn’t have any active issues with my penis size. You know, you look at it hard in the shower, or in the mirror, you suck in your belly, you squeeze the base and try and make it look as big as possible - you cheat with a ruler and measure from underneath.all that subconscious stuff you do to make the best of a bad situation - convince yourself that you’re the man. So I think I was even feeling cocky about it one day, and brought it up to her, kind of like “so what do you think about my penis.” And she said something to the effect that it was long enough but “it could be wider.” Ow.crushing. Brought all those old insecurities rushing back in an instant.
Because aside from surgery there’s nothing I could do about it right? I was just stuck being too small for my girlfriend. So it was really at this point in my life (about 3 years ago) that I REALLY began obsessing about it. Every time she’d start masturbating during sex, I’d interpret it as my dick not being big enough. She also had a hard time cumming at all during sex, which I logically interpreted as I “could be wider.” And I didn’t like it if she’d see me soft because I was a shower (if you can even call it that) not a grower. I don’t think I even realized how much it affected our relationship until now.
But the worst thing that happened was when we were going through this week long fight about a year ago, and the issue of penis size somehow came up. We weren’t actively fighting at the time but I could tell she was looking for ammunition and it was her who brought it up. Ex-boyfriends I think was the topic. I immediately felt uncomfortable and tried to change the subject because I could sense an attack coming on - and then she said it: “My ex-boyfriend had a HUGE dick.” As if she’d been waiting to tell me that all week. Talk about a kick in the nuts. It still stings thinking about it now. You know it may have been that statement that sealed our eventual fate, come to think of it. Just couldn’t stand it anymore.
I’m sure many of the guys in here have similar stories. Sure you can say that all you need is more self esteem and not a bigger penis - and who cares what other people think, it’s what you think that matters and all that.but come on. Why else would guys attach weights to their dicks for up to six hours a day for years on end unless it REALLY mattered to them. It’s what every man wants. And if you can get it, why not go for it? I don’t expect it to solve all my problems - but I bet it’ll help.
But that was yesterday. Tomorrow I’ll be Dirk Diggler. And I’ve got the tools to get it done. I’ve got a BIB hanger, a pump, and my Penimaster just arrived in the mail today. I have a very busy schedule so I don’t have a lot of time to spare so what I’ve come up with seems like the best routine in terms of balancing bang for buck.
I know they say to wait to use the BIB until 3 months in, but I just don’t work that way. I know myself. I need to start now or it just won’t happen. But I see no danger with starting off hanging if you’re using light weights. I’ll break myself in, listen to my body, and gradually titrate to effect. Anyway, here’s the plan:
When I get home from work I’ll start with a couple 10 minute pumping sessions (following avocet’s recs for break in period, followed by a hanging session for about an hour and half to get the ligs involved, followed by the Penimaster until bedtime to help cement those gains. Not a big fan of jelqing and other manual exercises because they’re just too time consuming. Hanging and the ADS will allow me to be hands free so that I can study or do whatever. To help this process along, I plan on buying an ultrasound wand ($200) to heat the ligs prior to and in between my hanging sessions. Since ultrasound also has the ability to help drugs penetrate deep below the skin, I’m also working on finding a medicinal ointment of some sort that might help loosen up the ligs as well. Any suggestions on that would be appreciated.
So I’ll have the hanging for length (and girth at the base), pumping for girth and some length, and the ADS to help cement it all. Pretty sweet.
Sorry for such a long initial post - I guess I’m just gitty to get started with this whole process. Thanks for reading.