My reasons for PE.
I haven’t actually told anyone this but I feel I should get it off my chest because it may help with the mental aspect of PE.
I didn’t really have a problem with the size of my unit until very recently. I mean I knew it was not massive, or even average (5.5 BPEL x 4.5) but I was unbothered by it, because I am quite good with women and I figure my personality makes up for any deficits.
Anyway, in November last year I met a girl who I fell for instantly. We chatted alot at uni and then over the Christmas break we emailed several times a day, she even got upset when she thought I didn’t want to go out with her. However something happened and she went odd with me, didn’t want to talk to or see me any more. I chalked it up to experience and left it at that.
Several months later, May I think, she told me she missed me and we started talking every day over the internet. Then one day she asked me out on a date, I agreed we went and had fun. Then about a week later we met up again, then every day that week we saw each other. We got on like a house on fire and everything was going extremely well. She told me she really liked me and wanted to sleep with me and then invited me over to her house.
I obviously went round the next day, and she took me over the park where we sort of messed about for abit. Then she asked me to carry her back to her house so we could have fun. I was obviously feeling a little excited, so was at 100% erection and as I picked her up in my arms I sort of rolled her off my thighs and it pressed into her side. I have never seen anyone look so dissapointed. I tried to laugh the situation off, but there was no question that she had felt my unit and been more than underwhelmed by it. After that moment her horniness vanished, in fact we got back to her house and she made it extremely clear that there was to be no fun and I should leave.
After that everything went down hill, she no longer wanted to see me and tried to convince me that she had never seen me like that. However, she could not tell me why she had said the things she had said and told me she just wanted to be friends. Thinking back on it she was probably just looking for a fuck buddy and when she discovered I wasn’t as big as she thought she changed her mind, and then tried to cover it up so that I didn’t feel bad. At the time I got extremely angry with her and said a few things I probably shouldn’t and now we don’t talk.
So I guess I am kind of doing it so that that situation never arises again, and also so in a few years she hears from one of her friends that I am hung like a horse.
Since that happened I haven’t slept with anyone, despite the opportunity. Last night a good friend of mine was grinding on me in my bed, but I pretended to be asleep in order to avoid dissapointing her. I just don’t want to have to see another dissapointed face.
My short term goal is 6.5 x 5. I think at that point I would consider my size normal and be confident in getting it out, because although there are men with larger units I would know that the vast majority of men were the same size as me.
