I heard about this site a few years ago, and tried PE once or twice, but never really stuck with it. A few years ago I was 4” in length and 4” in girth. I have a congenital hormone disorder, and due to insurance difficulties I have been rather spotty with the hormone replacement therapy (testosterone). I just started up again on HRT after being off for several months, though I haven’t really been on testosterone more than one or two months at a time over the past three or so years. Part of that is because of my size. I didn’t like having a “normal” sex drive, with such a small penis. I’m terrified of being rejected, so I have never even dated (I’m in my late 20s).
I finally measured again tonight, and not surprisingly I have shrunk to 3.75” in both length and girth. My body makes very, very little testosterone on it’s own, so without the HRT I lose all spontaneous and night-time erections. Use it, or lose it, I guess.
I am determined to make PE work this time. I’m at a stage of my life where I’m finally getting things going on the right track and finishing college, but the one thing still nagging at the back of my mind is my penis size. I don’t want to have to “settle” for a girl who loves me for everything but my penis, or one who isn’t interested in sex. There may be that perfect girl out there who would love my small size, but I would probably be emotionally dead from countless rejections before I found her. I suppose I have nothing to lose, since I don’t plan on dating at my current size.
I just started the newbie routine, but I am having issues with getting erect too easily. No matter how many times I let myself get semi-erect, by the time I finish a single stroke, I am rock hard. (When I first tried PE, I was able to stay sort of semi-erect, but I didn’t have the drive to commit the time.) Also, it’s hard to use both hands, since I only have about two to three inches of usable shaft space to maneuver in. I know it sounds silly to complain about being able to get hard at the drop of a hat, but this is one time I wish I was impotent. I can’t even measure my flaccid length without at least getting halfway erect. Oh well. Hopefully once my body gets used to the HRT again, it will calm down and not be so sensitive.
Sorry if this is long. I had a lot to get off of my chest.