Losing erection during Jelq's.depressing.
I know there have been threads about this, but I couldn’t locate them with the search function. Sorry if this is a redundant thread..
The last few times I’ve jelqed I haven’t been able to maintain an erection beyond 6-10 jelqs. It’s horrible. I might be over-reacting a bit but this is exactly the way my sex life with my girlfriend went, where I was okay (certainly no stamina champ or anything though) during the earlier stages of our relationship (just like I was able to jelq successfully at least thrice last week), but during the middle part of it I would have bouts of ED and be unable to get it up at crucial moments (like now). It’s eerily familiar and I am incredibly depressed because of this.
Tonight I masturbated to the brink of ejaculation so many times, jelqed 6-10 times, and got soft immediately. Does that do anything to help the penis at all? I ended up shooting my load after the 15th try or so out of frustration. I really had wanted to stop ejaculating right after PE, but I needed that release because I had a lot of bent-up anger at that point..
Also, I know it is possible that my inability to stay hard may be psychological. I have reoccurring day mares of my girlfriend and I breaking up, being infidels, all sorts of negative ideas that I tend to act out in my mind and even aloud sometimes (she’s away at college). I have trust issues obviously.
My “friends” always take jabs at me. I suppose it comes with the territory befriending loud-mouthed rapscallions, but it really sucks. It’s been happening since I was in 7th grade. I was going to create another thread (tomorrow probably) delving deeper into social issues involving people with small penises..
The last thing I suspect is that my girth is too skinny to keep erections for too long. My 4” girth is the smallest I’ve seen on this site and probably one of the smaller in existence, and I often wonder if I fall into that category of having an inhumanly tiny organ, incapable of sustaining hardness for a normal amount of time.
I feel horrible. My only true friend is my girlfriend and I can’t even trust that she’ll stay faithful. She’s given me no indication that she would do otherwise, but she’s young, inexperienced and impressionable. Plus a 7 month drought would wear on even the strongest relationships, I’m sure. I want to improve myself for her, but the last few days all PE has done is make me more depressed than I already was because she’s gone.
I’m sorry for all this bitching, didn’t really stick to the topic. I needed to get this off my chest. I’m going to bed now and I’m gonna go to the gym in the morning, then school, then work, and then hopefully PE at night, so hopefully everything’ll be good tomorrow. Night everyone.