Inspiration for others
So I figure it’s time that I pay back to Thunders because for me, this site has given me quite a bit. I have not posted in a while for the reason that, I really didn’t have to anymore. For the first time since I joined, and actually the first time in many years, I felt content with my penis size. I was looking for a link to my first post ever on Thunders, but could not find it, so I wanted to link another one of my posts to give those starting out an idea of where I began (mentally and physically).
When I started out almost a year ago to the day, I was about 6.9-7 inches BP with a significant fat pad, at least an inch. To some of you that may not be so bad, but when your 6 feet 230 pounds with a decent amount of weight around the midsection, that can certainly look bad. My girth was somewhere around 4.7 mid, 4.8-9 (thickest, uppershaft) and 4.625 at the base. Again, I know there are definitely people worse, none the less I was really struggling mentally with this as you will see in this thread.
On Nov. 3rd 09, I was measuring at my all time high of around 8.35 BP (7 4/8 NBP length), and shortly before I was 5.37 (thickest girth), around 5.1 mid, and 5.2 base (prob lost a bit since time off). That said, I gained somewhere in the range of 1.25-1.3 inches in length, and an avg. Of around .45 in girth. I think my gains have gone pretty well for me, especially considering that I became less interested in the last few months. Had I not, I probably could have made .5 in girth, and close to 1.5 in length.
The main reason I am posting all this is to help those who are feeling the anguish I once felt. I know not what every persons reasons are for coming to this site. I am sure some come to this site just because it seems like it would be cool to have a big dick. If you are like I was however, you feel such a sense of inadequacy that it haunts you day and night, and some times there is nothing else that you can think about. I actually had times that I was so ashamed of myself I could not sleep or even get it up.
At that time I bought the extender, I wore it 3 months thinking it had worked (measured with a bad ruler) and then measured with the right one only to find out I was the exact same size or even smaller. This was an incredibly painful feeling, I no longer believed in PE, I was completely hopeless in my own mind. This all happened in October of 2008. I could not get an erection with my girlfriend for the next few weeks.
I started PE on Nov. 1st of 2009 and did not join thunders until much later, I did PE for about 6 weeks before I decided to measure. I was scared SHITLESS this was my obsession. Finally God/the Universe gave me a break. The first few times I measured I was the exact same size as I had been the previous 50. But finally I got a real hard erection and saw 0.2 inch gain for the first time ever. I knew this was not a fluke because I had measured so many times before with the same ruler.
That started the gains. Throughout the last year, I had pretty consistent gains. The angst still haunted me, and at times (not nearly as much) it still does, I still look in the mirror and wonder if I am big. I think about the past, but for the last few months are the first time that I ever felt confident with what I had, and a lot of it is due to the help of the people on this site.
TIPS/WHAT I HAVE LEARNED-
I believe everyone can gain, it is about finding what clicks. I wore that extender just as recommended for months, and I think I lost a tenth or 2.
I never once missed a workout on a day I decided I was going to workout, if someone was home, I was taking a longer shower. You have to make a commitment that you’re going to get it done. You don’t need 2 hours/day to gain, I don’t care who you are. You should only need 1/2 hour day if your doing the workouts right (especially in the beginning). Watch out for PI’s. You should have increased morning wood, this is a huge sign in the beginning.
The following is the most important tip of all, and cannot be stressed enough. Do not believe the unrealistic hype about penis size. When I say this, I do not mean "Does size matter" I believe sex has gotten better with a bigger dick. However, I do mean the idea that everyone has an 8 inch plus penis. YEAH DON’T BELIEVE THAT PART. When I look at my penis is the mirror, I sometimes think it does not look much bigger than before and then I measure it with my fingers the same way I use to and I think wow! What I am trying to say is the minds eye is such a horrible indicator for size. There are so many things that go into the equation if you see someone naked. (Hip size, testicle size, height, color of skin) you cannot estimate someone elses size that properly.
Long story short- I hit the back end of my girlfriend (who has a bigger feeling vagina than others girls I’ve been with) and I am just under 7.5 NBP. If I had anymore than 8 inches NBP, sex would be terrible.
OK that’s it for now if you have any questions, post or PM.
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