Insecurities

There ain’t no doubt about that. So many fakes and people that destroy themselves trying to keep up. Many can’t afford luxuries, but because their friends or neighbors went and bought say “a speedboat”, they too have to follow. Even without any means of paying for it. All just for the image. It’s all a fake facade. They don’t have shit, but still feel they have to live up to standards for security in society.

As far as the woman, I thought about it a lot afterward. It did make me insecure. I felt as though I wasn’t good enough for the women anymore. But, I also felt good about myself for being able to resist as well. Not many men could do that, especially when offered so directly. Tremendous willpower, I tell you. I think if I took her up on her offer, she wouldn’t have even noticed, like you said. Unless she was sitting there with a ruler(haha!! That would actually be funny.), I’m sure she wouldn’t have known the difference between 5.75” and 7”. I probably could have told her it was 8” and she would have believed me. After all, she had been drinking. Her judgement was already impaired. The thing is, is I’m not a liar or a fake. I wasn’t going to lie to her just to get that blowjob. I wasn’t going to pretend I was something I wasn’t. I just gracefully declined, without her knowing why and felt better about myself later on for doing so.

I should add to my previous comment that this woman went on and on about her genital herpes outbreaks beforehand and asked if I had herpes as well. She originally offered me sex, but since I told her I was herpes free, her response was to just blow me. All this talk made it that much easier for me to decline. Some crazy ass women out there? Haha!!