I really need some help
If someobody could relay this to others in other parts of this forum that would be helpful as I cannot access them yet. I injured myself 4 years ago doing this stuff.. Initially I jelqued too vigorously and caused the donut effect with some minor bruising and a blood bubble or something on the top of the shaft an inch or so from the base along with some decreased sensativity along the top of the shaft. It was vague and I think it gradually enveloped slightly around the sides but it was not serious desensitization so it was hard to tell but it never got better. I stopped for a while and about a month later in the shower I was fully erect and bending against a moderate downward curve several times in a row to sort of work out the bend over time being the plan. BTW I always warmed up with warm water and stretching. Well I bent a little too far and the whole penis became instantly desensatized, except in this case there was no tingling or pain or anything, I would not have noticed were I not washing it in the shower.. Kind of strange in itself. I was traumatized and scared out of my mind for a year and had no luck with doctors of any kind. Then I accepted it as a terrible mistake to never make again as I found I could still have sex and everything functioned PERFECTLY, as it still does today, there was just a massive loss in sensation that varied across the skin surface where only the skin along the circumsision scar remained 100%. A year or so after that I was getting head and like a light bulb ,click, there was a sudden drop in the sensativity around the circumsicion scar and since then randomely every few months or weeks or whenever it decides I loose a little more. I have seen a dozen doctors who all say the same thing after a breif look and exam, ” I have no idea whats wrong, looks ok to me” as if they don’t give a shit or they arent a man who could possibly concieve the terror and pain of loosing their penis in their early 20’s. I am currently persuing psyco somatic help but I don’t think that is the answer. I have had and MRI with no results and like I said a dozen very personal exams with no news. I really need someone’s advice on how to approach this as I really do not know how much longer I have. Maybe someone on this board in the dallas area or within 100 miles of it could assist or knows ANYONE who could.. Hell Ill go out of state I don’t care but I need help ASAP. From someone who gives a rats ass and will do more than mentioned above. I am in aggonizing constant fear and need answers as I don’t want to lose my life so early. Please help me out.