I have an issue with my EQ. I don’t know why or what may have caused it. I’m thinking It may be performance anxiety based. My real question is this:
What supplements/drugs can I take for a stronger, natural erection?
My performance anxiety is probably caused by my ex girlfriend. We were together for four years. (Me being 18, that’s a long time.) I lost my virginity to this girl as she lost hers to me. We’d have sex all the time. Sometimes three or four times a day. And that’s on a bad day. Well after four years of being together, I guess she got a little bored in the relationship, or maybe she just wanted to try new things. She cheated on me with a friend of mine. He was the school’s player, you know the type. He’s black, by the way.
Well she spread around the school that I had a little dick and I sucked in bed. I NEVER said one negative word about her. In my mind that gave some strength to the “black guy” stereotypes. I actually began to believe that I had a little dick and I sucked in bed. Well we broke up at the beginning of senior year in high school, during football season. Well I started taking creatine and some testosterone boosters to bulk up a bit so I’d play a little better. I gained a bunch of weight, almost to 170 lbs. More weight equals more fat. Less circulation? Maybe.
So I was depressed, self conscious, and unhealthy. Well I quit football and started playing soccer. After about 6 months of taking the testosterone boosters I stopped because I was no longer trying to gain weight. I got another girlfriend (a little too soon) but we never had sex or anything really sexual, so I don’t know if I was having erection problems yet. We ended up breaking up pretty quickly. I was also pretty heavy into porn during this time because she was a hell of a tease but never let me do anything. Porn induced ED? Maybe.
About 6 months after stopping the testosterone boosters a group of friends and I went camping one weekend and there was a girl there. She obviously wanted me. At this time I was blissfully unaware that I had an ED issue. So, of course I went to the cabin with her. After hours of trying to get it up and failing, my ego was shattered. I told her I didn’t know what was up and we could try again the next night. Well, that didn’t turn out so well either. An exact repeat of the previous night.
Well a while after that I was talking to another girl from the trip and she asked how girl #1 was in bed and I said I didn’t know. I told her I wasn’t feeling it during the camping trip and that’s why we didn’t have sex. She said maybe it’s because I need more than physical attraction to get it up. I didn’t argue, though I wasn’t too sure.
Girl #2 and I got together not too long after that conversation. She’s black by the way. After a few heavy make-out sessions I decided to tell her about my ED issues. She was pretty understanding about the whole situation, and told me sex just wouldn’t be a big part of our relationship. That was a huge blow to my ego. Well after a while, we were getting pretty heated in my car one day when she unzipped my shorts and whipped my dick into her mouth. I got so hard so fast that she gagged. Lol! It was amazing!
Well a few minutes later you can imagine what was going through my mind. We both ended up butt naked, and just as I was about to put it in the thought crossed my mind, “She’s been with black guys before. I’m not big enough.” And just like that, I was softer than butter in the summer sun.
I had to explain to her it wasn’t her fault, and she started crying. I was holding back tears myself. We just laid there for an hour cuddling naked, and I kept apologizing and she kept telling me it was okay. I knew in my heart it wasn’t.
A month went by, and a few more failed attempts passed. One day in the car again, she was sucking me off. I was hard as can be. She reached up to my face and covered my eyes with the shirt I had taken off. I was confused and thinking “what the hell is this girl into?” She uncovered my eyes and I saw her straddling me. She reached between her legs, grabbed my dick, and sank down on it. I was still hard!
Well after a while, I wasn’t as hard as I was in the beginning. I could feel my dick fading with every thrust. I managed to cum before I completely lost it. She was completely satisfied, or so she said.
The other night she stayed the night at my house. This time, I stayed hard for a good while, but I started fading again. I could feel it. I’d play it off by acting like I slipped out and shed suck on it for a minute and Id be good for another two minutes or so before I’d fade again.
I don’t know why I’m having ED issues. But now I know its not physiological. Wanted to get you guys opinion on what I should do, or if I should take any supplements or drugs to make sure I can stay hard for hours. I don’t want anything like Cialis or Viagra, I just want better EQ. Help?
Thanks guys, and sorry for writing so much.
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