Am I crazy?
Hello all! I’m new here after stumbling upon this place randomly. Since I was a kid, I’ve been self conscious about my size. Maybe its because I’m a little on the chubby side, and all of my siblings were skinny, I thought it was because of my weight. As I got older, I realized that it wasn’t necessarily a weight thing, and that even skinnier guys have the problem. Therein lies my issue. When I was about 15 when I first started having sex, I would get nervous a lot, so I think that contributed to some of my rather shabby sexual performances in my early sex life. Now, fast forward to about the age of 21. I’ve had plenty girlfriends now and have a different type of sexual bravado. That meaning, like, I don’t get nervous, I’m more sure of myself. Its crazy, because my dad always told me, don’t worry son, you’re a late bloomer. My girlfriend would never admit it, but when we were like 18 or 19, for whatever reason, my buddy down there was smaller. Its like I really ask her sometimes, like what were we doing back then? And then we laugh and she says she’s always enjoyed our sex. I guess I should mention, I’m black. That being said, I’ve never gotten complaints. Maybe when I was younger I would get the occasional “deeper, baby”, but I would comply, and that was the end of that. Lol the thing is, I’ve always watched porn and I’m pretty aware of what I Don’t have. I figure, because I’m black, my stuff should be huge.
So let me get to my point. I would say I’m about 8 inches erect BP on a good day and maybe 4.5 girth (can’t do exact measurement right now lol). The length might be ok but is that skinny? I mean, some ppl here may say that I’m complaining about small things (no pun intended), but at the end of the day, its a mental thing sometimes. Some girls are shaped different. I’ve hit the cervix on some, others, not. I’ve had some girls scream, some not. Like, if a girl tries to deep throat me, it doesnt fit in her whole mouth, some girls it does. Its not really an issue of is it small, so much as its ‘is it enough?’ I’ve been cheated on by my girlfriend of 5 years. Even thought we reconciled and I know she loves my sex, I can’t help but wonder was the guy bigger than me, or was it thicker. Maybe that’s my thing, I want to be thicker. I don’t know. Its crazy because for whatever reason, from the age of 19 til now 27, I’ve grown down there and I wasn’t doing anything but typical jacking off. I mean like seriously, it stopped growing when I was maybe 25. And that’s what led me here. Like, to me, I don’t want to just be a good lover, I want to be her best. In my opinion, my sex is good, but I want it to be better than good. Is that crazy? And like I said earlier, I don’t think I’m small or bad in bed, I just think there’s a lot of room for growth (pun intended).Any input will help. Thx.
Last edited by biggesmalls : 12-23-2014 at .