A must read for every newbie
It is my sincere desire that this document really helps other guys avoid the mistakes that I have made. I’m truly ashamed that I waited this long to write this.
When I came to this website, I did so out of a belief that doing this would truly help me grow my penis and have more confidence to be the type of man that could really please his wife/girlfriend.
My horror story began in May 2003, when I felt a twinge in my penis after I masturbated the wrong way (face down, humping the bed). Doing this deadened the nerves in my penis and made me impotent for a few days. This can be attributed to TMS (Traumatic Masturbatory Syndrome). There is a Yahoo Group dedicated solely to sufferers from TMS. TMS happens when you masturbate face down for a number of years.
That twinge signified that I had done serious damage to my penis, however, like an idiot, I did not stop and change my behaviors.
My erections were on and off during the summer, but eventually I made the life-changing mistake of doing erect jelqing once I returned to school in the fall.
The effect was simply disastrous. I fear this ruptured some veins and capillaries. My dick ended up shrinking dramatically both in size and girth. It would behave as though it was cold and it was shrunk in, like an accordion. I did not have normal daily erections, and the erections in the morning were very weak. I lost both size and girth in my penis size and it changed shape. My confidence fell hard. To make matters worse, rather than letting it heal, even though my penis felt weak and tired, I would masturbate to compensate for feeling bad about not having erections. My orgasms were not controllable and the ejaculation size was smaller. This is when I knew something was seriously wrong.
Other times, my penis also became very hard and I lost my morning erections. I think the dorsal vein on top is thrombosed. After visiting three different urologists and having a penile ultrasound, I have been told that my blood flow is normal and that there is nothing wrong with my penis.
Obviously, I know better. My morning erections aren’t there. There isn’t the same pleasant “pull” in my erections that there used to be. The angle of my erections has dramatically decreased and there feels as though there is some pressure on the dorsal side artificially forcing it down.
The nerves in my penis are not the same also. My ability to control my ejaculations has decreased and I often feel that I have no control over when I orgasm. Whether or not they return to normal is totally questionable. I have absolutely no idea.
Physically, my penis has lost both size and girth (over 1 inch of erect length) and the head seems to have shrunk quite a bit. There is also an odd shaped ring around the glans of my penis. It is also misshapen by having a very skinny base, fat middle and small head. It appears almost bow-legged. I believe this is as a result of erect jelqing.
Stop worrying about your dick. Go out and meet people. Learn from other people. Get into healthy relationships and your penis issues, if you have them, will go away.
Exercise often. Stretch your limbs even more often. It feels great. Put good, nutritious food into your body. Grow your mind. Thunder has gone to great lengths to help so many men, (he has no idea), but the fact is, your penis is only a small part of who you really are (no pun intended).
I know most newbies who come to this site are eager to grow and eager to make gains, but for God’s sake, GO SLOW and take plenty of rest. Listen carefully to your body, it’s the only you have. Warmup, get a mentor, and take it easy. My chances of recovery are extremely slim at this case and I’ve to deal with so much emotional guilt and depression from ruining my body and decreasing the quality of sex with my future partner.
Do you have any idea the amount of emotional damage that comes from losing over one inch in penis size? I wouldn’t wish it upon my WORST ENEMY.
Never erect jelq unless you are an EXPERT or YOU WILL LOSE SIZE. I promise. Do you hear me?
Also, please, consider making a contribution to Thunder’s Place. It doesn’t have to be huge, but any amount will do. This website gives you so much good, honest advice… I wish I had listened more carefully and had this community when I first started doing PE.