2 years to gain Hope for a negative guy
Okay so this is a long time coming. No puns intended.
So I’ve been a bit of a mess the last few months. After giving up hope I would ever have sex again or ever be happy, ever experience marriage or happiness or the comfort of a kiss at the movies I by chance met the girl of my dreams. I’ve made a few posts most of which were negative not by intention but by desperation.
Over the last few months I have really struggled with my demons, my weight, my body scars and of course my penis and it has been really difficult. In fact extremely difficult, so much worse than I had imagined it would be mainly because I have fell in love for the first time.
I had just decided to give up on myself, had signed up for a volunteer program in Africa and had decided to live my life for others because I didn’t want to waste it, when I met her. She is beautiful. So much a stunner. And although I’m not ugly I never imagined a girl this hot would ever want to talk to me nevermind be with me.
As it turns out she I amazingly beautiful as a person as well, and over the last few weeks she had signaled her intent to be with me and told me she loved me. I broke down and told her I was flawed and ugly and I hid behind my clothes but she insisted she didn’t care. And we could work on it.
Then come the day when I told her I was small. And I know not the smallest but small. All her boyfriends have been well endowed by her own admission and as well she admits she loves sex. She was taken aback and understandably shocked but after a while she said I had nothing to be ashamed of and it wasn’t anyone’s fault and I shouldn’t beat myself up.
Then she told me she still loved me and maybe we could find a way to make it work. Still she admitted we would probably have a mismatch as such but perhaps we should still try. I was so ashamed. She is drop dead gorgeous. I’m fat and scarred and have a small cock. But still she loved me. Although I tortured myself she hasn’t seen it yet.