I have a question for everyone on here. I’ve been extremely insecure about myself because I’ve had a major nose problem. It’s been broken for I don’t know how long and it’s all I ever see when I look in the mirror. I can’t focus on other stuff. I do have other redeeming qualities, but I guess I have this mentality that “I’m only as strong as my greatest weakness”. I do feel that I would be better looking if I did not have such a fucked up nose. It’s been broken for a long long time now. I would like to get nose surgery, but I’m afraid of how others will see me afterwards. Friends and family will judge me differently.
There is no doubt I would feel better about myself.. Or so I think.. But I’m also afraid it may contribute to this personality of perfectionism, which I’m sure others on this website have, of course isn’t that why so many of us are PEing in the first place? What I mean by that is that I might want to get other surgeries done in order to “fix” myself. I know that sounds crazy, but I feel like getting one done would make me more likely to get more done. I also don’t think this would immediately solve my self-esteem problems either. It may help a little bit, but in a lot of ways it would make me MORE insecure, because I’d be questioning what others think of me knowing that I got the procedure done. Of course with girls I don’t know, I think it would help.
I feel that it may impede my possibility of getting close with girls, because I can’t help but think that I’m not good looking enough to be with them. I guess I’m afraid of the stigma associated with it. Everyone always seems to jump to conclusions that people are “weak” for getting surgery for their physical appearance. I am not trying to get it crafted for beauty, I just want it to be normal again. It’s been badly broken and it does affect my breathing and I believe it would help me sleep better. So there are health reasons and superficial reasons for getting this procedure done.
If anyone has had a similar dilemma or can offer some suggestions that would be great. This has been troubling me for 8 years now.