Erectile dysfnction... any advice greatly appreciated
I have been suffering from a degree of erectile dysfunction now for the last four years. My history is complicated but penis enlargement is a big part of the events so please read on. If you have any words of advice or even better if someone has gone through something similar then please offer your feedback.
At the beginning of 2002 I was 23 and got together with my first ever girlfriend. I was a virgin. I had my fare share of hang ups about sex, principally the usual concerns over performance. Unluckily for me Jen posessed what is commonly referred to as a bucket vagina. She also had no interest in foreplay, had a completely insensitive clitoris (I know that is hard to believe but it is true) and got off on hard vigorous penetration. I new I was not filling her (I was 6 inches NBPEL and a tapering 6ish inches girth at the base to just under 5 at the head). Unfortunately she made a point of telling me about her insanely hung ex with a cock as thick as her arm who once made her pass out during sex. I developed, looking back on it now, an obsessive disorder. My inadequacy was quite literally all I could think about and I was coming close to a breakdown… Then I found this site…
I got some great early gains, shot up to 6.5 NBPEL and gained maybe 0.2 inches of girth. Jen commented on the difference without any prompting from me. I was walking on air. Then the gains halted. I did not, I pushed on harder, more intense. I went into work an hour early every day and worked my cock solidly in the disabled toilet. My tissues were probably screaming out for recovery but I was oblivious. My erections were still fine at this point. But then something happened.
Christmas 2002 and I wake up in the morning with the standard morning wood but something is different. The glans are not inflated. I implode, waves of anxiety rock me. In the weeks that folowed I steadied myself, told myself that things would heal, that even if they didn’t it was only the glans that were not as hard as before, that it would be ok…
It has been four years since that xmas and a lot has changed. I split with Jen, left my job, started studying medicine and found a new girlfriend (lovely tight pussy ;) However my erections have not recovered during these years. Quite the opposite in fact. I believe there has been a steady decline in function. My morning erections are variable, more often than not quite floppy and never the granite like rigid of old. I went to see an expert early on and had all the tests, nocturnal penile tumescense study, doppler ultrasound and cavernosometry which incidentally involves the insertion of two thick needles into your willy- a lovely experience it was not. A mild venous leakage was diagnosed. Ligation of the suspect veins was offered and carried out. This gave no improvement. The only discernable affect was a shortening of my penis by about 0.5 inches (back to where I started- oh the irony).
I should point out at this point that I am not impotent. Sometimes even now when I am in the right frame of mind I can get a rigid erection though it does not hang about. Other times I can maturbate to orgasm with an almost completely limp erection. Although I often used viagra with Siobhan (2nd girlfriend) for peace of mind and confidence, sometimes things worked well enough without (though not perfectly).
So why my concern? Because I can’t help feeling that even with all the day to day variations in how my willy responds there is still a marked trend towards loss of function. In addition I have recently split with Siobhan (not because of my ED - we had a great sex life) but because we were not compatable in other areas. So I am facing the big scary world of singledom again, with a far from perfectly working willy.
My doctor, has asserted thoughout that he thinks my problem is 90% psychogenic and in fairness I am quite a neurotic type. But then again he carried out the venous ligation so he obviously accepts there is an underlying physical problem.
I don’t know what I am asking from you guys really. Advice? A cure- I know that this may be more than I can hope for but you never know… Maybe the input of someone who has the same symptoms as me (sudden loss of glans inflation with gradual decline in function following this). The medical profession are aquainted with common causes of erectile dysfunction, diabetes, cardiovascular disease etc etc. My problem, I am 99% sure was, at least innitiated by my penis enlargement activities. Although I have explained to a number of doctors about PE they are completely clueless. You, the members of this forum have potentially the expertise and insight to help me that a doctor, even with all his training does not.
As a last note I will tell you what I was doing PEwise that fated xmas of 2002. Jelqing and stretching had been ongoing for some months but in the last couple of weeks I had added some intense head squeezes (holding the base while you squeeze the head). Also I had bought a cock ring and had just started wearing it after a jelqing session to keep the blood in the penis and aid growth. I was wearing it for about an hour following a session and it was the day following the second time I wore the ring that I woke up and had my melt down. These things may be related or unrelated. My own personal suspicion is that wearing the ring starved my penis of oxygen and lead to some damage of the smooth muscle of the penis, but that is purely speculation.
I am only 27 and it’s a scary future to look into if my erections decline further to a point where I am not functional even with a viagra crutch. If you have made it to the end of this epic thank you for giving me your time. If you have something which you think may be relevent then please give me a few minutes more and write a reply.
Thankyou once again, dongers (Toby).