Some concerns

Hey there. I have been pumping with the DP 4000 and doing jelqs and Ulis after the pumping sessions. Keeping g the pumping 20 to 25 mins spiking between 4 to 5Hg for 6 second intervals.

Was getting good expansion and PIs for the first month and then kind of supercharged my workout with going harder on the Ulis. The expansion was amazing and had my temp gains stay around longer. Pretty much kept doing the routine like this for a couple more days and then the left side of my shaft went numb, sort of.

I have a curve on my left cavernosum and it seems like my right cavernosum expands more.

I have obviously stopped PEing for about a week and a half, but my penis on the left side still seems like it is not wanting to expand to full capacity and it seems like some loss of feeling on the bottom left base.

I have always had an issue with my left cavernosum not expanding so I guess this is not anything new but I feel at the base when I have an erection, the penis curves quite significantly there.

The base feels like some tightness and weird feelings.

I now aim to do PE in the hopes of remodeling my penis because my penis is quite long, at about 8.1” BPEL, but the base girth is a little thinner than my MEG and the left cavernosum needs to be remodeled for optimal erections. Concerned about very rough sex that a stroke may cause me to greatly injure myself due to having this curve slightly amplified.

I guess I am typing too much. Just kind of freaking the fuck out because I was doing good and taking things slow but just those few workouts were enough to supposedly do something weird.

I split this post from my progress report as it is way off topic.

When you have concerns like this don’t b afraid to start your own thread.

Do you have advice on my situation? I know rest is gonna be the big one, but yeah, I feel as if I should just pump at low pressures to keep the process of remodeling the left CC and keeping blood flow.

It was most certainly doing the Ulis which fucked me up. Just got hooked into seeing how much my penis could expand.

I will rest for a few more days. Erections take a little longer to get due to this.

On top of having a lot of stress on top of everything with school, work, and cutting calories. May have to do with some of this but yeah the left base of my penis feels like it has some tightness and the sides of my shaft do feel as if they have less sensation. Maybe due to just stopping my routine all of a sudden lead to decreased blood flow?

I am speculating that I was in the process of just starting to possibly get rid of some local plaque in the area but IDK.

Your symptoms of loss of sensation and not full erections are the only things that you need to worry about. I would recommend rest and only rest. Your theories on tissue remodeling are not backed by any sort of Hard Evidence and I would not suggest you bet your long-term penis health on theories that you have only read and not practiced before.

You admit the both of your posts are majority speculation and feelings on this topic. Go with what works. Do not diagnose and treat yourself.

Yeah for sure. Rest, that is really the only thing I should be doing.

It just fucking sucks man, but oh well, life, things are always out of our control.

Been at 7.8” BPEL by 5” MEG forever. I start up a routine and a month into it, I get to 8.1” BPEL by 5.25” MEG always and then decide to go a little harder and then setback. Just want a dick that gets rock fucking hard, with a little larger stats :) , and alleviate this curve all of a sudden.

Well, after enough setbacks, I made more progress with this routine, just those fucking Ulis, wasn’t ready for them. Gonna keep the pressures low and jelq. When healed of course.

Update.

Pretty much loss of sensation, small flaccid, small sharp pains at the left base of my penis that happen randomly.

Gonna get some L arginine and some Omega 3 supplements hopefully to aid in recovery. Really busy with an online class so it’s helping me keep my mind off the injury.

Was at the library doing my thing, and this really cute blonde girl was sitting a few desks away from me. I got up several times to get some water and always caught her looking at me.

She got up several times to walk down the aisles in front of me to supposedly look for a book, but didn’t get anything. I was well aware of the situation, and I hate the fact that I am injured so much more in moments like this.

Oh well, hopefully my body does what it can to repair the damage I caused my unit.

I would honestly not use the l arginine or omega 3, you want circulation but you don’t want to force too much circulation. Plus different supplements, even if they both promote blood flow, can cause very different results.

If you want to try promoting circulation with supplements, I would recommend 400ui of vitamin e, and 1/4 tsp. of 90k HU cayenne pepper powder, once a day for 2 weeks, then don’t take them for 2 weeks, then 2 weeks on, 2 weeks off, rinse and repeat.

Or try some fast paced long distance running.

I have little knowledge on vitamin e and cayenne. Why do you recommend those supplements over arginine Omega 3 combo?

I’ve had penile injuries in the past several times, and each time the thought of suicide enters my mind.

One of the pleasures I have holding back on will not be expreienced and I really do question going forth with my pointless life if I will not experience the pleasures.

I hope I do heal this time around and will keep my routines simple and safe. But yeah, if I don’t heal this time around, shotgun slug to the brain. I don’t see myself enjoying my life if I cannot have sex and at the very least lose my virginity.

The injury I am currently trying to treat is a gash/tear that is visible directly beneath the surface of the skin resulting in a loss of sexual sensation. Improvements in this injury come in the form of a crawling, prickling digging itch and afterward new bubbles of tissue appearing or expanding in this damage area.

The 2 week on 2 week off rotation of vitamin e and cayenne pepper powder has shown that it can drastically increase both the odds and intensity of these improvements, particularly, in the first few days after starting them, and strangely, the first few days after stopping them, which is why I suggest the two week on off cycle.

Fish oil/omega 3 has actually increased the chances of further damage when I’ve tried it and I’ve heard some bad things about l arginine so I don’t use it.

I went fully there and back again with the suicide thing. Around 6 months after this injury, I was planning a date in my mind that I would do it if I didn’t get any better. I was planning how, all the details.

I finally realized that, first, I don’t believe in an afterlife, so if I did it, that would be it forever. At least staying alive, there was a chance that someday maybe they’d find a cure. Look up lab grown penises, they’ve already started human trials and have successfully done lab grown vaginas. The United States Military is providing massive funding because it’ll help wounded soldiers.

Second, as crazy as it sounds, I thought about all of the people who didn’t like me, or thought I was weird, laughing about that weird kid who committed suicide. Well they wouldn’t openly laugh, they would kind of gossip and act like they felt bad about it, but they’d be snickering. And I just thought, no way, I can’t let that happen.

Then last, as time went on, I found new ways to enjoy life. It may sound like some stupid cliche nonsense, but I lost the ability to feel sexual pleasure, I was agitated and unmotivated, no libido, I literally felt like I lost everything. If I had to choose between losing that, or losing a billion dollars, I would have rather lost the billion dollars. So having hit like total, absolute rock bottom, I began to just do whatever I could to have fun. And over time it made me stronger. I don’t think anything could ever phase me after going through this.

When I’m saying loss of sexual sensation, I’m talking like full post finasteride syndrome symptoms too. Whatever I injured must have messed with some of the main nerves leading from the penis up to the brain and it was literally neurological castration.

So for now take a breath. I know everything seems like its all happening right now, and you need to know what will happen, and what you’re gonna do, but take it one day at a time, there is a lot of time, things can sometimes improve very gradually.

Since the injury, does your penis change at all when sitting down, or sitting in certain chairs?

Yeah I understand about finding new pleasures. I just have been anticipating a relationship, which yes involves sex, for so long. I am currently 24.

But life is not fair. There isn’t a god looking out for us, nor if there really is, he doesn’t need to look out for us anyways. Humans are a species that cannot reach a natural equilibrium with the earth so we need to heavily augment the environment and the world’s resources to provide us with a higher probability for survival. Which in turn causes extinction on a global scale and severe climate change that is pushing the Earth to enter another Ice age.

In the meantime, we segregate ourselves into tribes and fight each other if we cannot come into an agreement with how certain resources are allocated. That is our history. And it is just…

Lame.

I have a very pessimistic attitude anyways, and having this happened, just fell in place. So me dying will actually be a good thing if something were to occur.

I do not want to die, but seeing how shitty our existence is, what happens happens. But yeah, enough of this introspection bullshit. I want to fuck and be with a girl all the meanwhile I know life sucks.

My penis. The shaft outside the pubic bone is pretty much numb. If I itch the surface of the shaft, there is some excitation that I feel near my spine so there is still some electrical activity going on. The glans have some sensation. On my left ass cheek, there seems to be some radiating sharp pain which I hope is Wallerian Degeneration taking place, regrowing the nerves about 1mm per day. There was no laceration of the nerves, supposedly, the injury should have been a nerve crush injury so if my research and my situation match up, then I should expect to heal. But,shit still happens and this isn’t the perfect scenario.

I did look at myself in the mirror, and I did find it very difficult about ever killing myself. I do care about myself, and realize there are other pleasures in life, but realizing if the potential reality were to ensue, I picture myself loading a 12 gauge slug into a shotgun and placing the end of the barrel in the roof of my mouth and pulling the trigger. If for some reason I am off, and I am still somewhat conscious, I’ll load another slug and pull the trigger again. Again and again. Lol.

A little dark humor there.

I’ll try out your anecdotal recommendation. I’ll look it up a little bit, and am also gonna get some cardio included and clean up the diet. Hopefully the nerves heal. The human body, while really shitty in a lot of ways, does want to repair itself.

Thanks man for taking the time to respond to my dumb-ass.

It’s no problem, I feel I need to post on these injury forums in order to find some kind of closure.

I remember thinking when Trump was still running and people were talking about a potential nuclear holocaust, well good, then everything will just be chaos, and I won’t have to deal with functioning in a fast paced, high pressure society while feeling like this. But it’s like Julius Caesar said, ‘death, a necessary end, will come when it will come.’

Over time I found a strange sense of pride and glee in knowing that I will fight to stay alive and make the best of things until the bitter end. Of knowing that this couldn’t break me. But also a sense of serenity in knowing that I was seriously, truly planning suicide, but after careful consideration, decided not to. If there were ever a time for me to commit suicide, it presented itself, and I said no. So I’ve made the decision to live and I’m at peace with whatever comes next.

We all develop these stories in our minds about how things should go, and sometimes life is full of twists and turns, and you need to abandon a certain story line, even if you had it in your mind for a long time. If the story line about what you’re supposed to do, and when you’re supposed to do it, keeping in line with societies expectations, is completely shattered by some tragic occurrence, you can literally at first lose your mind, as your ego attempts to reconstruct itself in an entirely new perspective on reality.

Based on my experience, the radiating pain is a good sign, and you haven’t reported any tingling (which would be a bad sign). It could be inflammation or damage to some tissue which has messed with the some nerves. An alleged hard flaccid recovery was reported from swimming, and another from using cayenne pepper.

Whatever you do, don’t overdo it, because you don’t want to put to much pressure on anything. A few simple things to help along healing that wants to happen.

Feel free to keep updated.

Hey man. How do you recommend taking the cayenne pepper? And I guess what are your recommendations on taking both supplements?

I have been in school this summer and have been sitting on my ass everyday. I do get up every 30 mins to move for 5 to 10 mins but I think there is some issue with an artery or some circulatory tissue on my left leg/ass cheek that is prohibiting blood flow to my penis. IDK. It’s kind of weird.

Also, the past 6 weeks, my diet has been really fucking bad, and I did gain a lot of weight. My concern maybe is that I may have picked up diabetes and that this may be contributing to my circulation issues with my penis. I still get morning wood so that’s a good sign I guess. I do not seem to have many of the side effects other than peeing often, but I do constantly sip on water throughout the day so I stay hydrated and force myself to get up from sitting just to maintain circulation. I do wake up once and sometimes twice a night to piss which makes me worry somewhat. Gonna get some bloodtests.

Well, my diet is perfect right now. I usually count calories and maintain optimal nutrition… But the last 6 weeks… Ehhh.

Well, in this situation right now and see if I can get back to normal.

Yesterday, I was walking to my car and saw some fine fucking ladies, and was simultaneously thinking about your advice about picking up a new story and was having some anxiety because of it. To me, women are one of the most aesthetically pleasing things on the planet, and not having a chance to mingle with them… Fuck man…

*SIGH*

Haha.. Damn, there is slight humor in the situation but, yeah, there are people worse off then me and they’re happy. But, yeah, well I am just gonna be redundant here. I am hoping to see progress in my situation in the next three months. If not, well I guess I really have to implement that advice.

Forgot to mention that I am also starting up some cardio again. Nothing too strenuous at first. Just on the elliptical at my local gym.

You want the 90K H.U. powder. Fill up a glass of water, mix in a 1/4 tsp and drink it, and you want to eat something beforehand as well. It’s going to be really hot, but the hotness in your mouth on it’s own actually stimulates blood flow. The vitamin e you can take 400ui in a liquid gel capsule at the same time. As far as whether you should take them before or after the cardio I can’t really say since I haven’t mixed cardio and supplements yet, but my first instinct would be to take them after you do any cardio that day, not before.

Once I’ve identified a few chairs that are really helpful, I’m going to restart the cayenne and vitamin e, and then the long distance running. With helpful chairs, the cayenne and vitamin e cycle, and long distance running, It’ll be combining everything I’ve learned of these past four years, and I should see at least some very substantial progress. One other thing- ejaculating once a day for roughly two weeks, then taking a few days off, 2 weeks on, a few days off, so on and so forth. The position that your body is in during ejaculation makes a difference too.

What kind of chair or seat do you typically sit in at home/dorm room? And definitely get the diabetes thing checked. Doctors may not be the most thorough with investigating the cause of penile injuries, but they can absolutely tell you if you’re diabetic or pre-diabetic.

Most guys get anxiety at the idea of approaching women, or sleeping with new women, and if you have an injury it’s going to add to it. Just be very clear with yourself about what you want. That way at least you can get rid of extra anxiety from indecisiveness. Right now, I’m on pause, since I may be able to actually cure or come very close to curing this injury. If I explore every avenue and still can’t, then I’ll accept it and go meet girls. If I do, then I’ll go meet girls. But right now, I have to see what I can do with this.

The amazingness of hot, incredibly sexy women cannot be overstated. Which is why losing sexual pleasure + libido has to be one of the worst things ever. When this injury first happened, looking at beautiful women was like looking at rocks or trees. I couldn’t PICTURE sexual thoughts in my head. Well I could, but they didn’t ‘stick,’ it was like trying to force it. They had no impact, no different than thinking about golf.

You said two things that jumped out- life isn’t fair, and there are people worse off who are happy. Which I think shows that you’ll get through it whatever happens. And there’s definitely some humor in the whole situation. For the longest time it bothered me like crazy when people on some forums said people weren’t really injured. I think it’s because, imagine if this had happened in something like a car accident, there would be a sense of closure. But the fact that it happened so unexpectedly, I still wanted it to be treated like a serious injury, because the symptoms are, even if it happened for a silly reason.

Then the other day on another forum, someone said ‘I really don’t know how to say, explain or shout that I have an injury.’ And I just started laughing and couldn’t stop laughing for like 5 minutes. Just letting go of all of the tension of trying to convince people that this really happened. So sometimes when you finally hit your breaking point, you find a deeper sense of letting go.

There’s a book called The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, it’s a true story about a guy who had a stroke that caused him to be completely immobilized, except for being able to blink one eye. And he wrote the entire book one letter at a time, by blinking when an assistant’s finger pointed at a certain letter. When it first happened, being rolled down the hall of a hospital in a wheelchair, and he saw his reflection in a stained glass window, he couldn’t help but to laugh to himself.

So first you are going to wait three months, and then try out the cayenne and vitamin e if it still hasn’t gone away?

I didn’t convey my message very clearly. I am going to get the cayenne and vitamin e ASAP and combine it with my cardio. Get plenty of rest, eat healthy, and all that shit.

Yeah my chair is pretty shitty. My previous desk chair that was padded got fucked up so I have been using a chair from my kitchen. Essentially a wooden chair with the slightest padding for my ass. I am speculating that the many hours I have spent this summer sitting on my ass studying may have contributed to some kind of damage or blockage, but that seems weird because when I started my PE routine I was having pretty sensitive tissues but I was sitting more than what I currently doing now by getting up every 30 mins.

But yeah, best thing to do is eat good, rest, cardio, supplements. It’s all about increasing circulation and hoping new capillaries will form in supplying blood to the right places.

I am currently studying Chemical Engineering, but things like nerve damage fucking bother me because actually experiencing this shit is fucking horrible. I am gonna get my B.S. soon, and may work for a couple years doing some Engineering but may want to get into a field in repairing nerve damage. It sucks man, and even reading your post about that guy being paralyzed, gives a little anxiety. I understand that life is really unfair, but yeah, I am still in the thought process of wanting to survive and wanting to experience the pleasure I have been waiting for for so long.

Just came back from a cardio session, and have cooked my meals for the day. Gonna go to the library and finish up this fucking class finally for the summer, and try to hang out with my bros and a couple friends afterwards to take my mind off this shit.

What makes things kind of difficult is that I have this friend/acquaintance who I tried having sex with, and she told me she did find me very attractive, until I opened my mouth. She said I was capable of getting 10’s and pointed out one of her friends who is better looking than her that would be interested in me but I would need to shut the fuck up haha. I get a kick out of trolling somewhat. But have to knock that off with a particular audience. Not trying to be vain.

But, yeah. Have to dissociate myself from finding women to be the most precious thing for me. My bros and friends should take priority as well with my education. I guess these are the stages where only time and applying the methods to recovery is the only thing that should be prioritized. I am being really fucking redundant here, but this is like a journal where I get to see my thoughts. Somewhat therapeutic.

All right gonna get to work. Thanks man.