Lowrider”sorry to here all that’s going on with you. I use to smoke two packs of smokes a day, smoke more grass then you could imaging for 15 years. Plus took anti depressants. Well from all this my sex drive was shit. For years. From research I found out they all cause ed. Get it. I’m sure you no this you just don’t want to except it. Well I eventually stopped them all threw my life an my EQ went up like I was 18 again. Anti depressants rape you from EQ. I remember when I was on them, man I couldn’t get hard for shit. The good then about them , you last longer in bed. Now don’t stop taken them. I’m not saying that. But you can live a good life without them. I’m proof. I’m fucking bipolar an it runs in the family so. Just keep positive people around you is what I do. So I don’t snap on someone lol:-) . Good luck man.