I’m sorry to post this in the newbie-forum (Don’t want to scare any new members), but for some reason I wasn’t able to post in the main forum. Anyway this is how the story goes..
I started PEing about a year ago. At first I didn’t know much about it, and I seemed to injure myself again and again, but nothing too serious. Then I found this forum and started doing quite a lot of research, found some reasonable PE-routines and did experience some gains. According to the ruler I didn’t gain much, but my penis felt bigger, and the erections were better (most of the time). I found it hard to jelq at 70-80 % so most of the time I wet-jelqed at 90-100 %, which resulted in some bad PI’s at times, but I also seemed to be gaining a bit from it. I tried to experiment with different kinds of lube (to find out, which kind was better), but the wet-jelqing started to require more and more. I discovered that besides from the discoloration, the jelqing had resulted in a whole lot of extra skin (this became very obvious during a deacon-break, when both length and girth decreased).
Experiencing these difficulties with the jelqing, I started focusing more on the stretching (still doing some jelqing, though, but only dry jelqing). In the beginning I always experienced bad EQ after stretching, but it seemed like my penis got used to it little by little. Then it even started requiring a daily set of stretches, and it took more and more to maintain the good EQ. When I realized, that I had probably been way to hard on the little fellow for two months or so, I decided to take a serious break from PE.
At that point my erection quality (which was already bad) started to get very, very bad (and of course it didn’t get better from focusing on it), and I wondered if I would ever “function” again without PEing. I tell you, I was loosing my mind, I was depressed, desperate like never before. And I could only blame myself! But instead of jumping of some bridge, I went to the doctor. I got some pills, but they didn’t give me back my good old Woodie. However, they didn’t even seem to work very well..
The thing is, I can still get a hard on, it’s just not as hard as it used to be (at all). And the extra skin makes it seem even even softer. The angle is barely 90 degrees. And the worst thing is that it is so very loose at the root that I can turn it around 360 degrees when it’s erect (I mean, touching my stomach and my thighs (legs) and it doesn’t hurt the slightest bit). It’s like the ligaments disappeared completely. My girlfriend hasn’t commented too much on it, but it’s obvious that she wonders what the hell has been going on with the penis during the last year..
Well this is my PE-story. At the time I’m considering to get circumcised to get rid of some of that extra skin. I was so happy when I found this page, and I really tried to put a lot of effort in to it, and for a year my penis was the most important thing in my life. I got some gains, and I saw changes, but when I quit the good changes disappeared and left me with an old mans penis. They say some people just can’t do it, and this might just be right..
The funny thing is that I still keep hoping, hoping that there’s something I can do about it. Wondering if PE could help me to get my old penis back if not a better one. If I only had a mentor or some professional to tell me what to do, or even to confirm that PE is not for me - at least then it would be easier to leave the thought of returning to PE.
I don’t know what kind of comments I expect to get from this post, but I know that I would really appreciate anything right know.
Start date 10th of juli 2007 - Start measures BPEL: 7" / EG: 5,25". Goal: The 8x6 (BP) would make me the happiest man on Earth ;)