I’m pretty sure I’m fucked.
The CS indention is bad and all but I got so much things wrong I think I’ll kill myself over this.
My flaccid with pulled back foreskin looks sick. It looks horrible, everything about it is just wrong. It’s like the penis dies 2/3 up the flaccid. I’m getting better erections but I suspect I’ll have hard flaccid, bad pelvic floor problems and probably a big tear somewhere in the body or fascia.
It’s violently destroyed. I was already hard on it. Trying jelqing and doing it to hard set me up for ruining myself.
I don’t know what to do. I have to get a surgery somewhere, I’m quite sure I’ll never have my penis back. I will probably get some hard flaccid, bad looking mess even after more waiting.
Some suicidal thoughts while in a situation where you are worried your penis will never be the same again is normal, I’ve had them myself. But I’m definitely not killing myself anytime soon and neither should you. I’m going to do everything I can before I go down that road. Killing yourself while there is still so much potential for your penis to get better would be such a waste of a life. And the best thing for you to do is keep leaving it alone and it definitely won’t get worse. If it doesn’t get any better in a few months, then there are more steps to take from there. I’m pretty hopeful about the DMSO and Iodine when I feel I’m ready to try it, and it will probably help you too. I really think the indentation could just be scar tissue. Just give it more time to heal before you try it, and go to a doctor. Your penis is far from broken.
You should post pictures if you feel comfortable enough. Your penis might not look as bad as you think.