Erect to dead limp in 0.4 seconds, RIP penis 7-11-07
Well chalk me up for another statistic that totally messed his dick up. I don’t want to discourage anyone from PE, as I loved it and the results I were getting from it, but it’s just a risk one takes, and sometimes the situation I am in arises.
At the beginning of June last year I started PE, exercises I gathered from another site. A month into it I was very happy, just met a girl (whom I am still with) around the time I started PE, very hot indeed. I thought I had it made, just graduated from High School, nice muscular physique, and a very intelligent attractive girl. I kept working at PEing, I had a lot of fun with it too, in complete solitude in the bathroom with my headphones on and exercising my member, all a while thinking about how nice it was going to be when I had the total package of a porn star. Well, on that nice sunny day of July the 11th, after being completely happy with my life and everything bad that happened in the past didn’t mean shit, because mentally I was at the top now. Vividly I remember it how that big shiny cock (80-90%) erect at the time with a sudden POOF, best I can describe it because it was the most immediate change I ever seen in my life. In the blink of an eye that full penis was now lying soft and flaccid in my hand. I tried to stimulate it some, but was so totally perplexed by the occasion. That I finished up my shower and went on.
Over the next couple days I went on performing PE, but just not as much drive and excitement with the idea of getting big really. Just more mandatory it felt when performing it. Well not even a week later, my girl was over, some fooling around, and we agreed to have sex. Though for the first time ever I could not achieve an erection, I would get semi erect through stimulation and as soon as I would try to penetrate I’d lose it. So bewildered by all of this, I was determined to not give up. Because I just couldn’t really fathom this happening. So after 2 hours!! I can’t believe it was that long, we finally had to give up. And she went home, and I felt like a failure almost completely. That night I poured myself some stiff drinks, rare.
Gradually, my erection just died down til I never felt excitement over messing around again, completely non existent it was. Constricted to my body, pre cumming excessively even after one kiss, lifeless, limp you name it. A month later, my doctor figured I was just having too much anxiety and unable to perform because of that, at the same time I was puking after meals because I was so unnerved, well the xanax didn’t do anything, well it did make me feel like a zombie. November came, and I discovered Dr. Lin, bought his products, and I came off of them because I was concerned they’d interfere with antibiotics at the time for acne. Start of the new year, I started the Internet urologists products again, until I was losing all my hair from them.
So here I am today, slowly gaining back some of the 35 pounds I lost due to depression I experienced from it all. In an attempt to revive my penis, I kick started my hair loss and feel I have still not done anything significant in regards to healing my penis I feel. First urologist I seen had nothing helpful but told me how he was horny 100% of the time when he was my age, as if I could easily mimic that if I wanted to. I have another urologist appointment in a couple weeks, but feel the only thing now is an inflation device or malleable rods inserted into my penis to keep it up. Symptoms include.
-Erection goes limp 10 seconds no manual stimulation
-Soft gushy glans
-Extreme veinage, 2 of which run down each side of the shaft at all times
-Weak base, dick seems flimsy when erect
-Never erect higher than 9 o’clock, I have to contract pc muscle to hold it there just for a mere 5 seconds
-No nocturnal erections
-I cum within 10 thrusts when having sex
I’m supplementing with l-acetyl-carnitine 1000mg, borage oil 3000mg a day (following Internet docs orders) fish oil 3000mg a day, l-arginine 10,000mg a day, seems extreme but I’m desperate, it helps me when I’m in the mood a little bit, but still deal with all the symptoms I listed. I massage my penis for 10 minutes and warm it with a towel for 10 minutes twice a day.
Thanks to those who read.